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[Dora]

Hi Tam..remember it's not about you and what you've done but about Him and what he did.

[Tam]

no sis I do not love me. I do not like what i am or what I have become to be honest.

[mlg]

I want to show you something...you believe God doesn't love you because you don't love you...your beliefs are not only on what others think but what you think...and those things sis are what are holding you back on allowing God to love you and for you to see His love...so time to learn to love yourself....not because of where you've been or what other have said or done...or what you have done...but because of who you are when you let God work on you...everything begins new...everything starts fresh...let Him wipe the slate clean.

luv ya

[Tam]

How?

[deetu]

tammmmyyy!!!

Glad you are working on this stuff. Makes sense to do it now.
Pulling weeds and planting flowers. Get rid of old stuff and ask God to replace with opposite good.

And I know that God loves you because He told you

[mlg]

Tam on my way home from work...a song came on the radio...God told me to share it with you...I'll be sending you the link to the video shortly...I think if you listen to it and really hear the words He will speak loud and clear to you...

luv ya

[mlg]

Wanted to post the lyrics here for you to go and read after you've watched the video...luv ya

Lyrics to Love Me by JJ Heller:
He cries in the corner where nobody sees
He's the kid with the story no one would believe
He prays every night, Dear God won't you please
Could you send someone here who will love me?

[Tam]

Thanks for the lyrics mlg

[Tam]

Day 4

Let's do a little digging and find out who we really are today, shall we?
Hard question to face. DO I really want to know who I am? Would I even believe it if I did? The lesson today is on forgiveness. Forgivining ourselves and others. Forgiveness is not an option but something that has to be done in order to be blessed. I get that. But to me sometimes saying "I Forgive" means everything is ok.
All my life I have lived behind ok. How are you today? Ok How are things going? OK What an easy answer to give. Doen't let people get to know the real you. Gives you something to hid behind. It is time to come out of hiding it I want to be all that He wants me to be. This is all about me right now so that it can be all about HIM. By that I mean that I have to get to the real me so that HE can begin to heal and do the work that HE wants to do in my life. So many times I have not taken care of me to help or take care of someone else. Look where it has gotten me. I think that there comes a time when it has to be all about us for HIS glory. Make sense?
So the forgiveness list is very long and this could take some time. All the hurtful things that have been said, the acts that have been done oh wow! But as the study says....I have to forgive me. Forgive me for what? For being born? For being a child? For being what I wasn't suppose to be? I have to forgive me for believing all the lies that were spoken to me and over me. I have to forgive myself for thinking it is all my faulg. I have to forgive me for being angry with God. I have to forgive me for not loing me! I have to forgive me for going back there time and time again. I have to forgive me for not standing up for what is right. There is so much that I have to forgive me for and so many that I have to forgive. Is it necessiary to be specific or does AGod know?
I guess where I need to start with forgivng myself and learning to love me so that I can love HIM like I am suppose to. How can I love anyone else if I don't love myeslf? Impossible to do! So my prayer today would be for Him to continue to show me who He is and for me to begin to forgive me so that I can love and trust again.
I am doing this not because some study told me I had to because that would just not be right. I am doing this because it is time for me to let go of all the crud amd let God be who He needs to be in me so that I can do what it is HE has called me to do. I can't be selfish and hide behind the crud anylonger it is time for me to Let Go and Let God.
So back to the beginning of Who am I really? you see I really can't answer that question right now because I don't know who I am. I am not the person that people have implanted in me....the loser, the stupid one, the idiot, the never amount to anything person,. Those words may have made up who I was but I am turning from those and learning who I am in HIM. I am learning that I am a child of someone who loves me, someone who wonh't abandon me, some one who won't beat me, but someone who will accept me in with loving arms regardless of what I have done or where I have been. That is so hard for me to grasp. I feel knots all up in my stomach when I say that. I get all teary eyed when I even think that HE would accept me when no one else did. That He loves me when no one else does, and that He will always be there for me even when I dont think He is.
So seems like starting at the very beginning is a very good plasce to start.

[deetu]

Woo Hoo
The beginning is a very good place to start.
Remember tam, ask Holy Spirit to help you, to guide your words and you will have help...not needing to struggle or be overwhelmed.

Here's the link to breaking word curses
http://www.christianityoasis.com/Member ... hp?t=19208

You are doing great!!
I know you can do it

[mlg]

Tam, an idea hit me as I was reading your journal for today's step...I'd say Holy Spirit inspired

Maybe you don't know who you are right now...and you know that you aren't what people have said you are...so how about making a list of who you want to be...and while doing that you might just come across and see that you already are some of the things you want to be.

Tam you are doing great at walking the steps...and if you keep fighting through the battle you will win the war.

luv ya bunches

[Tam]

Thank you mlg and deetu for all the encouragemen that you are giving me. So greatly appreciated.

D I have begun to break the word curses everytime I catch something negative that I have said....I immediately follow it up with something positive. I try not to let it take root and grow but though it out the back door.

mlg funny that you would say that because I have alaready begun that list. It has very little on it right now because I thought how crazy is this. But guess it is not to crazy huh!

Love you ladies