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The first day I came to Christianity Oasis, I had no idea what kind of site it was. I talked to a few people in the chatroom, and figured out they where Christians. They accepted me even when I told them I wasn't a Christian. That night I had a dream and I posted that on the forum. I can say...I really didn't like the explanation.
I wasn't raised in a Christian home...I grew up with satanism and have been there half my life. There was satanic ritual abuse and more awful things. My mother was priest...that means I couldn't expect any help from her. Till now I don't know who my father is.
I 'created' persons to 'protect' me. I needed them to survive. I was not allowed to play with friends or go to a birthday party. That means I was very lonely.
When I was 16 I got pregnant as a result of the satanic abuse. I tried to hide it, because I knew when they found out something bad would happen. When I was about 5/6 month's pregnant they found out and forced the baby to be born. They used my premature baby as a sacrifice.
After that I became very ill...lost a lot of blood. I still don't know how I came in the hospital, but there was one thing I was absolute sure of...I didn't want to go back to my mother and the group. Because I was 16, I needed a place to live and they contacted my grandmother. I lived with her 2 years which where the happiest years of my life. My grandmother died...but she left some money and I had the possibility to change my name and move to the other side of the country. My grandmother asked me to do that for my safety.
I started my education as nurse...after that I got my license to educate nurses. Presently, I nurse terminally ill and teach. Because of my health I work 32 hours in a week.
I got counseling because I had mpd. That means I change personality without knowing. Strange thing is I never changed personality when I was working. Often I found stuff in my house...and I even didn't know I bought it.
Slowly I was doing better and thought I could get over it....till I came here.
People here talked about love....that was something I didn't believe. I had no love within me and I thought I could live without love. Still I wanted to know why they where talking a lot about Jesus...God...love...Holy Spirit. I got curious and bought a bible and started reading. There was a lot I didn't understand and some chatters where always glad to answer my questions.
Deep in my heart I was worried...because I didn't want to get involved in something bad again....and I still couldn't accept the love that people have for me.
I found out reading the bible...it means so much more than just words.

About 3 weeks ago I was finally ready to accept Jesus as my Saviour! It's not easy to find the words to express my feelings. I know now that Jesus loves me...He love's me so much that He died at the cross for my sins....and I can tell you...I sinned a lot. I'm never alone anymore...and I feel that Jesus and I are walking together the same road. My alters are gone. I don't have nightmares anymore...I can only say, Thank You Jesus...thank you that You showed me the way to You via Christianity Oasis. Thank You for the love these people have for non-Christians. Thank You for the patience which these people have. Thank you Lord for your healing hands!

God bless you Waterlily...

All I can say is Welcome home and you look beautiful in the Light

Love you dearly but not nearly as much as HE does...

Susi

wow and wow again...you are one awesome lady..and you are growing so fast..and I know you Know the lord in such a real way..that you will teach others to find him too...and i see you are wanting to learn so much about Him, and you love the bible studies....you are loved .and you now love others...thank you for being such a caring friend to me..and also i'm glad all those old memories are gone,and you now have a new life with Him..your closest friend ..God Bless you little one...love you

Dear Waterlily,

Love you dear friend. I am so blessed by the Lord to have been given a small chance to have gotten to know you and learn so much from you and to love you. Your heart is so kind and loving and He has always known that, and now I am so glad you too are able to find that same love within you. He is there, always holding you and keeping you close. Thank you for helping me too, for allowing me to be your friend and a small part of your life. Have a blessed day and evening with the Lord.

Sincerely,

Breezy

Thank You Oh Lord for bringing my good friend waterlily to the oasis and thank you so much for her salvation Oh Lord. your mighty healing hand is so awesome and again thank you Jesus

awww waterlily sis

What a blessing it was to read your testimony.

I can imagine the joy on His face and in His heart when you returned to His arms. You were always His

May the Lord continue to guide your steps and lead you closer to Him.

GBU sister
luv u

Waterlily,

I am always amazed at what God can do in one's life. He surely is powerful, mighty, forgiving, and loving. It is a pleasure to call you my sister.




Love ya lots.

Dear Waterlily Sis,

Thank you so much for sharing your story with us and for being here and for being a good friend.

When I read your testimony, I couldn't help but think of Joseph. His brothers sold him into slavery and he spent 13 years in captivity although he didn't do anything to deserve it.

Later, he was not only set free but put in a position to save the lives of many other people. His brothers were concerned that he would hold a grudge (understandably), but he said, "Now therefore be not grieved, nor angry with yourselves, that ye sold me hither: for God did send me before you to preserve life. Genesis 45:5

I feel the Holy Spirit is going to work through you to change your mother and the group Knowing how difficult it must be to think of them, I will stand in prayer for them for you.. and urge everyone else reading this to do the same. Your work with terminally ill patients gives you a chance to share the truth of Jesus with those who might not have another opportunity to hear. There is a huge spiritual battle going on here, and I am sooooo thankful to God for bringing you out and to Oasis.

Love ya,

splashi

My dear sweet sister,
for weeks now Ive looked for the words to say to you. There are none that can describe the pure joy I have for you. You are such a blessing to me. Even in the times you felt you had no love in you, He was working in you and you didnt even know it. The times you shared your concern for me over some of the things we talked about were evidence enough to me to say that the Lord was and is alive in you.

God is not finished with you. There are so many people who know the hurt, anger, pain and rejection you once felt and i truly believe He will use you and everything you experienced to reach these. We have an awesome God. Sis, all i can say is welcome home and that i love you so much, but He loves you more.

May the Lord guide and direct every step you take and may His will be done in your life always. May His wings protect you and His love shine in you as a beacon to those He will bring to you. In Jesus' precious name. Amen

love you sis, more than words can say.
in Jesus,
momo

I went to the hospital a few weeks ago because i needed dialyse...at first i didn't want to take it..i was tired..didn't feel well..couldn't work anymore.
But at least i went to the hospital..but that time i was really bad and when i was in the hospital..i felt in pieces...kidney's collapsed.
I got heart problems...but i cant remember much when i was at the ic.
Slowly it went better...kidney's start working a little when i got dialyse.
There was a christian nurse and we talked a lot. I also told her about Oasis and my friends here. (maybe she will come and take a look).
One day they did tests..and they told me they had to do it again..because the machine was broken. I had a strange feeling about it. The nurse came to me and said: Do you know what is going on..and i said: i'm not sure. She said: Your kidney's are working really better now and they cant believe it.
The next day they did again tests..and they found out my kidney's work 50%!! I don't need dialyse anymore!!
It was 10% when i went to the hospital.
I know many people here prayed..i recieved a lot of text messages and i'm very thankful for that.
When i was in the hospital 1Timothy 1:16, was often in my mind: But since I was worse than anyone else, God had mercy on me and let me be an example of the endless patience of Christ Jesus. He did this so that others would put their faith in Christ and have eternal life.

Mercy

Mercy, Praise the Lord, sis. He is our healer. His timing is perfect and so is His will. I praise the Lord with you for everything He has done and all He will do in your life. and.....sure missed you while you were gone. He is amazing, isn't He? Sometimes there are just no word to say except, thank You, Jesus.

i love ya, my friend,
in Jesus,
momo