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[HabibiJesus]

ok so i wrote this while being upset the other night after church. i will give u the back story first! my uncle is a preacher most of u may know, and i dont go to youth group with a lot of reasons that is hard to explain. sunday night 2/15/09 i sat by the youth group leaders daughter and my friend for i had for a while was also sitting their. as u may see it could be inoccent night at church. both of the girls r a chatter box unlike me i listen and look away around at other people. i did keep trying to get the two girls to stop chatting until after chuch but they didnt. when church ended i waslked to my uncles van like i always do. the youth group leader comed up to me and says " how would u liek it if u was trying to give out a message to people and someone was talking. i kept my mouth shut tight. i knew if it was open it was not going to be nice or christanity. as my uncle got in the car i told him if he tells me anything of what the guy said i wont come back to church. now i really dont want to do that for i love the church like i do here in oasis but the church also has problems thats not being seen!

like i said i wrote something when i got home to get my anger out! here it is.

POEMS FOR I'S!

I'm crying inside my heart, but no one see's me!
I'm invisiable when laughter and happiness is going around me. when they have something for me to do. I come out of my darkness, and try my best, but even my best dont seem to do any good!
I have the treas in my eyes, but you only see the shine with what little hope I have. It's so little, I dont think it will last long. when it end is when all those blind people be standing over me in a church. they will then see the real me.
I can reallys hine a bright star, but some evile cloud covers me and then my little light goes out.
Impertinet people only see my outside skin. saddens me that my life is more like a foggy, shaded, shadow.
In my pain I feel as if someone has pieced diffacult things in my heart to make me grimace in defect.
In my ear all i hear is a dirge. why do Impertinet people have to hurt such an inoccent soul. A sould struggling to surive this cold, and lonely world.
It seems as if no one can be reliable. I should of admonish myself for what these people would do.


this is all i have to say for my work is done. if no one can see it thenwhy shine anymore

the only faith i get is from here my very own oasis family thats u all i love u so much

[xxJILLxx]

Lil sis,

satan loves to use other people to steal your peace and joy... trust me i know alot about this lately... but what im learning is that we must carry on and not let others try to *poof* our little lights out.

we have to guard them from the wind and the rain. We have to keep adding fuel for our little fires so they can remain lit.

So i hope this encourages you, because even writing this to you is therapeutic to me right now and is helping me realize that when circumstances seem to block yr joy and peace we have to add fuel to our fires (His Word,Prayer, Etc.) And look beyond the situation and ask God How can i glorify you through this, what would please You Lord?

love ya lots !

♥Jill