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[bigcityfox99]

1/7/09
Today I felt a little under the weather, but I sucked it up and went to work happy. I sort of struggled with bitterness today. It is so hard to treat someone like Jesus would even when they treat you like satan would. But I managed (only thru the power of the Lord God Almighty) I keep forgetting to write down that I have been reading my bible daily. Wow! I can't believe how interesting it is. Its like a new found obsession I have with the word of God. I cant get enough! At lunch my office manager gave me a vitamin C supplement to help me feel better, and it did! And my day picked up from there. I felt a lot better and I was happier. It seems like it takes so much more energy to be upset or sick than it does to be happy and make an effort to be happy. After work I went to a bible study that my worship group has. It was my first time to go and it was different than any other bible study I have ever been to. Most of the time I didnt know what was going on. Not because I wasnt paying attention, but because I just dont know hardly anything about the bible and some if not all of what I have been taught was sugar coated anyway. So Im glad that I can hear the truth as is, instead of watered down so much. Even if I didnt know exactly what was going on I could tell that the Lords presence was with all who were speaking. And some things just come together so gracefully. One minute I can be clueless and the next minute I can totally relate to what is being said. I know that knowledge will come with time, but im so thirsty its hard not to be impatient. I did learn some new things tonight though. One being, NOT to rush the Lord. He will make everything fall into place, and I do trust him. Im learning to trust him more and more everyday. Im so glad I went to the bible study. It was a major blessing. On the way home I was going to grab a bite to eat at a fast food place or something and then I felt like I just shouldnt. So I just drove home a little bit confused about why God wouldnt want me to eat. I figured maybe it was just a wierd feeling and I thought about just eating something when I got home. But when I got home I felt so strongley against eating anything. Im still not sure if that is God, its so wierd because usually I have been able to know what God is telling me without any doubts. I ended up just not eating just to make sure. I will definatly be praying about my thirst for knowledge. Its very important to be able to know whats going on. Im hoping that tommorrow will be a good day. Cant wait to see what happens!