my mental health
Posted: Wed May 08, 2013 11:50 am
This is my second post here in this forum so am a little nervous
I have a few mental health problems first being Schizophrenia , i hear voices and see things some times i have delusions
Some of them i believe that the devil is coming for me and that i am evil ...it was just a few days go i truly believed it
Other times i have believed that my dad is still alive ( my dad died 2 years ago he killed himself ) and that i saved him from dying and there has been other things as well
Also because of the voices am too scared to go out on my own because i think am going to hit people because the voices tell me to do it ...i also have social anxiety because of this and i rarely leave the house
i also self injure and have an eating disorder as well as depression.
There are point where i am suicidal and my husband has to lock all the medication away so i dont OD on them as i have tried so many times to kill myself
Most of the time i want to be with my dad but am trying so hard to be here for my family and my husband
I dont have kids just cats and we arent having kids because both feel its be unfair on a child to deal with our mental health problems and deal with a kid
So we just have our cats there a handfull some times as it is
I try to remember that Jesus is always with me and i need to look postively at things
but its still hard
I have a few mental health problems first being Schizophrenia , i hear voices and see things some times i have delusions
Some of them i believe that the devil is coming for me and that i am evil ...it was just a few days go i truly believed it
Other times i have believed that my dad is still alive ( my dad died 2 years ago he killed himself ) and that i saved him from dying and there has been other things as well
Also because of the voices am too scared to go out on my own because i think am going to hit people because the voices tell me to do it ...i also have social anxiety because of this and i rarely leave the house
i also self injure and have an eating disorder as well as depression.
There are point where i am suicidal and my husband has to lock all the medication away so i dont OD on them as i have tried so many times to kill myself
Most of the time i want to be with my dad but am trying so hard to be here for my family and my husband
I dont have kids just cats and we arent having kids because both feel its be unfair on a child to deal with our mental health problems and deal with a kid
So we just have our cats there a handfull some times as it is
I try to remember that Jesus is always with me and i need to look postively at things
but its still hard