Hey,
I have to say - alarm bells rang when I read this... I know that at my kids' High School, there are some goths and they have taken it waaaay too far and they are, unfortunately, satanists. But the crazy thing is, that their parents have actually brought them up llike this. So.... I know this is a completely different thing but I just wanted to say why the alarm bells rang.
I have actually just googled 'Christian goths' and there is a Christian goth scene out there. BUT... I am sooooo wary of the general 'dark' nature of it all, that I'm worried it may be difficult to disassociate with the general goth scene and that in fact it could even be a stepping stone into that general scene. Which could spell trouble. I AM a paranoid parent though
Although my teenage years were, ahem, a 'while' ago... I still remember the draw into the metal scene etc and also the need to 'be' a goth or a punk etc. Often, people feel this need to change if they're not too happy with their way of life or even with their own personality. And with the change of scene, there was often a significant change of personality which would kinda go hand-in-hand with the goth/punk scene.
So, Belle, pleeeeeeeeeeease be wary of this and PLEASE don't change your personality because you have such a wonderful, friendly, joyful nature which is the kind that brings a smile to a person's day
It would be tragic to lose ANY of that to the dark goth scene. I know you have no intention of losing any of that BUT it's very easy to let these things take over. I have spent all my life in rock bands etc and I have seen this happen many times and it's not good.
So I would say just be yourself Belle, because you don't NEED the goth thing. You are wonderful as you are.
And your other question was 'is it ok with God if i'm goth?' Well, I can't answer for God but I know that I've committed myself to other stuff before now that has taken my focus off Him. So I've ditched the other stuff
I hope I'm not being too preachy or judgemental (I'm sure many goths are very nice people
) but I hope I've been of some help.
May God Bless you
Simon