A pondering today
Posted: Sun Feb 21, 2010 11:17 am
I am sure most of you know that I been running for past few months now. I keep saying I am coming back, back to how I felt when I first got here and started working on learning more about God; but have still been holding back. Not taking time out to live and do what I know I should.
I know it was my bad choices that caused me to stop coming in much. Why, cuz of embarrassment and shame. Then it occurred to me that God was with me the whole time, even through things I am ashamed about. That really got me. No matter what, I wasn't able to hide from God. So, two choices: either continue to go down that dark path, or bring it into the Light and continue in the Light.
At first I had all sorts of reasons why I did what I did. In reality, it was totally MY fault. Outside circumstances we have a choice as to how much to let it affect us. I am sad to say that I didn't do so well in my choices.
But, Today is a new day. A chance to start over. I admit I am a lil scared cuz well; I don't have that feeling
I know it was my bad choices that caused me to stop coming in much. Why, cuz of embarrassment and shame. Then it occurred to me that God was with me the whole time, even through things I am ashamed about. That really got me. No matter what, I wasn't able to hide from God. So, two choices: either continue to go down that dark path, or bring it into the Light and continue in the Light.
At first I had all sorts of reasons why I did what I did. In reality, it was totally MY fault. Outside circumstances we have a choice as to how much to let it affect us. I am sad to say that I didn't do so well in my choices.
But, Today is a new day. A chance to start over. I admit I am a lil scared cuz well; I don't have that feeling