stranded at the hospital
Posted: Fri Feb 05, 2010 9:40 am
good morning all
i had a harrowing experience on wed evening i landed in the hospital thru a call to 911.
my heart has an arrhythmia, for me its that in the span of one 2 heartbeats, it goes from normal to a rythm/speed of 170 ... with a beat that fast the blood cannot re-enter the chambers so flow is seriously, seriously restricted ... you kind of feel like you are walking into "tunnel" vision because basically there is lil oxygen getting to your brain so its really hard to think ... about anything.
this has been happening for about 6 years ... just not this bad. this was the 2nd worse episode i've had the other one being about 3 weeks ago. they are increasing in length and degree of severity ... this one lasted for 4 1/2 hours. when your heart works that hard, its like sprinting the boston marathon .... X10; your heart goes on overdrive, normally i can stop the arrhythmia on my own ... usually within 2 hours; this time i couldn't, so i called 911.
anyhow ... i'm looking into that, thats not the main part of my post
the thing that happened was that, because we just moved to victoria, i don't really know anyone, that i could have called to take care of the kids ... its weird that i didn't think of calling joshua (our son) before i left; but given that i thought .... i was dying, it makes sense that i wasn't thinking straight
so the emt comes, they have this really kewl drug (btw, kudos to the healthcare system here in BC it was superb) ... they had, set up within 2 mins, a complete mini hospital emerg room, in our apt ... there was 4 of them; this drug, they put into my iv ... and man o man ... as quick as my heart went to 170 ... it came down with the same speed. any how, they wanted me to go to the hospital, and still not thinking clearly i walked out without all my contacts ... one of the emt remembered my wallet, which was great ... however, all my contacts and long distance calling cards are in my dayrunner or on my cell ... and for those of you who know a lil about our background, we are single income family in a dual income world ... loosely translated ... we are always broke .... so i had zero money on me .... ZERO cash, literally not even 1 nickle. ... so as they are driving me in the ambulance ... i'm think "how the heck am i going to get my kids home"??
so we get hooked up at the hospital and i'm just lying there, trying not to look too freaked out as the kids are with me; and i start to think of, who can i call, there has to be someone ...
hubby - don't have my calling card and don't have his number (its in my dayrunner) shoot, if only i had remembered grab my cell. ( i know it sounds weird to not know all these numbers but we only just moved here and i've had 4 numbers plus a new addy to remember ... and i'm just not there yet with them) also, hubby's new land line since he got to SK.
joshua - again, didn't have my cell; now he lives with his gf ... actually, he lives with his gf and her roommates .... i looked up her name, but couldn't find it; i don't think the phone is in her name anyhow, prob. the girl's name whose father bought her the condo for school. (nice huh; perhaps thats another post)
the only other person, would be the landlords of the building: i (when i say "i" ... i mean my daughter because i forgot my glasses ... cannot see a blasted thing without them ..... only to remember, as the answering machine comes on with his voice, .... they are on vacation.
i hang up the phone and look at my two daughters ... and weakly smile, "i don't know what to do or who call?"
my mind goes to the bad place; if only:
i had thought to call darrell before i left; altho the guys 1500 kms away, not much he could have done
i had thought to call joshua and sheridan, the could have come over to watch the kids, then they would be safe in their beds
i had thought to bring my cell
if only, if only, if only ..... THEN .... i heard HIM .... "but, you didn't ... now what?"
~~~~~~~
you know, sometimes i don't like the way God chooses to do stuff; i especially don't like His "pop quizes" in this game of life.
i'm a studyier ... a digger .... i like to know all my options before i take a step ...
but thats not how He operates ... atleast not with me. i don't get to hedge my bets with Him ... and honestly, in the end analysis, i'm glad i don't ... because on the other side of wednesday night ... i'm stronger for it.
hope you enjoyed my struggle ... i do
ps: i went into to proofread, but i've run out of time ... anything not make sense sowwwry pm me
i had a harrowing experience on wed evening i landed in the hospital thru a call to 911.
my heart has an arrhythmia, for me its that in the span of one 2 heartbeats, it goes from normal to a rythm/speed of 170 ... with a beat that fast the blood cannot re-enter the chambers so flow is seriously, seriously restricted ... you kind of feel like you are walking into "tunnel" vision because basically there is lil oxygen getting to your brain so its really hard to think ... about anything.
this has been happening for about 6 years ... just not this bad. this was the 2nd worse episode i've had the other one being about 3 weeks ago. they are increasing in length and degree of severity ... this one lasted for 4 1/2 hours. when your heart works that hard, its like sprinting the boston marathon .... X10; your heart goes on overdrive, normally i can stop the arrhythmia on my own ... usually within 2 hours; this time i couldn't, so i called 911.
anyhow ... i'm looking into that, thats not the main part of my post
the thing that happened was that, because we just moved to victoria, i don't really know anyone, that i could have called to take care of the kids ... its weird that i didn't think of calling joshua (our son) before i left; but given that i thought .... i was dying, it makes sense that i wasn't thinking straight
so the emt comes, they have this really kewl drug (btw, kudos to the healthcare system here in BC it was superb) ... they had, set up within 2 mins, a complete mini hospital emerg room, in our apt ... there was 4 of them; this drug, they put into my iv ... and man o man ... as quick as my heart went to 170 ... it came down with the same speed. any how, they wanted me to go to the hospital, and still not thinking clearly i walked out without all my contacts ... one of the emt remembered my wallet, which was great ... however, all my contacts and long distance calling cards are in my dayrunner or on my cell ... and for those of you who know a lil about our background, we are single income family in a dual income world ... loosely translated ... we are always broke .... so i had zero money on me .... ZERO cash, literally not even 1 nickle. ... so as they are driving me in the ambulance ... i'm think "how the heck am i going to get my kids home"??
so we get hooked up at the hospital and i'm just lying there, trying not to look too freaked out as the kids are with me; and i start to think of, who can i call, there has to be someone ...
hubby - don't have my calling card and don't have his number (its in my dayrunner) shoot, if only i had remembered grab my cell. ( i know it sounds weird to not know all these numbers but we only just moved here and i've had 4 numbers plus a new addy to remember ... and i'm just not there yet with them) also, hubby's new land line since he got to SK.
joshua - again, didn't have my cell; now he lives with his gf ... actually, he lives with his gf and her roommates .... i looked up her name, but couldn't find it; i don't think the phone is in her name anyhow, prob. the girl's name whose father bought her the condo for school. (nice huh; perhaps thats another post)
the only other person, would be the landlords of the building: i (when i say "i" ... i mean my daughter because i forgot my glasses ... cannot see a blasted thing without them ..... only to remember, as the answering machine comes on with his voice, .... they are on vacation.
i hang up the phone and look at my two daughters ... and weakly smile, "i don't know what to do or who call?"
my mind goes to the bad place; if only:
i had thought to call darrell before i left; altho the guys 1500 kms away, not much he could have done
i had thought to call joshua and sheridan, the could have come over to watch the kids, then they would be safe in their beds
i had thought to bring my cell
if only, if only, if only ..... THEN .... i heard HIM .... "but, you didn't ... now what?"
~~~~~~~
you know, sometimes i don't like the way God chooses to do stuff; i especially don't like His "pop quizes" in this game of life.
i'm a studyier ... a digger .... i like to know all my options before i take a step ...
but thats not how He operates ... atleast not with me. i don't get to hedge my bets with Him ... and honestly, in the end analysis, i'm glad i don't ... because on the other side of wednesday night ... i'm stronger for it.
hope you enjoyed my struggle ... i do
ps: i went into to proofread, but i've run out of time ... anything not make sense sowwwry pm me