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I miss him so much, I can't get over him I still think about him like it was just yesterday and more then 1 year passed, I’ve had many dreams of him in my sleep, he made me happy, laugh and he let me be, and took me out which I myself usually never go out I always since a child stayed at home most of the time I’m so use to it I rarely go out even family parties. I’m not the same person without him ever since he left me for a other girl and moved to a other state I got so depression I wasn't stabled to think straight to do anything for myself I had anxiety so bad I couldn't stay still. I’ve been in the mental hospital three times when I was with him my diagnosis was Schizoaffective I was hallucinating and believing made up different things at that time I was with him. I have told him many non-sense fantasy stories I made him believe them, I wasn't on the right stage of mind at that time and I was doing drugs with him which is what mainly cause me losing my mind. I have cheated on him three times with different guys which I didn't mean to in purpose I was a sex addict at that time I had no self control. the last time I been in the mental hospital when I got out I have been starting to go to a out-patient program when I was starting to go to a Sex Addict Anonymous, I’ve went a few times I believe it have helped me and I have changed. I have recently yesterday and the day before have been putted in the spot to have sex the guys that have been begging me and for once in a life time I have said” NO" to both of them and i am planning to keep it that way for a long time I made myself a commitment to not have sex for a decade and a promise to god to take away my herpes.

Not sure if your going to like hearing this, but you don't need your ex-lover back. You need the love of our Father. You need to surrender to Jesus, pray that he will restore and renew your heart. He loves you and your here because he wanted you to be here. There is a great program here called christian councelling.
Our Father wants us to love him, but he has given us free will, for us to come to him.
You can not force someone to love you. I waited for years for my husband to love me, and one day I stopped praying that God would change his heart, and that one day he would love me. So I did something different, I prayed for me. I prayed that he would give me a new heart, a heart that no longer longs for someone who could not love me. The lords presence was with me, and took away that void. Gods love last forever.......The love he gives us no one can take. When we sin or are unworthy, he still loves us. He is trustworthy and faithful.
Never mistake sex for Love. For this will just leave you more empty. Gods Love is the real thing, for its not temporary but everlasting. God Bless You Melissa.

Hi Melissa,

Welcome to Oasis! We are so glad the Lord led you here. Sister in Jesus, I have to agree with ServeGod. You arent here by accident. Youve been looking for love in all the wrong places. God has called you here for healing and restoration. Sometimes we are praying for the wrong things. What we pray for isnt what God had planned for us. You are His child. You have been led down or followed the wrong roads but Jesus loves you and wants you to seek Him...He wants to heal you...then, in His time and by His will, He will make you ready for the one He has for you. Nothing else will work, sister. The deep-seated need you have can only be filled by Him.

Here is the link to the Cool Counseling. I have seen hearts and lives changed within this path.

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Im praying for you..as many others here will be.

God bless you, Melissa

In Jesus,
love momo

Hi Melissa, I will be praying for you and prayer for your health. I believe God wants us to work on eachother before he can reunite us with others that may not be the answer for us. It seems your getting the strength from god. You had said no to your addiction and I think thats great. I will continue in prayer for you. God Bless Kimberly