dear brother Robert,
I am glad you are here and able to share with us, and NO one should judge you for things you had no control over.
I was lucky as far as my father and that sort of thing but I was not so lucky in other area's,
As for your strength at not allowing porn to come into your life now, says alot about you and your strength
Porn is just another way satan attacks men and women, the worst part is it WILL consume you if you start.
It is worse than you can imagine in todays world, someone like yourself being a victim of it knows how much hurt it can inflict, but what most don't know is how it starts as innocent as a sales ad or a part in a movie, our world today is rampant with porn EVERYWHERE you look and our kids are being brainwashed to think things are ok when they aren't, such as what they watch, how they dress, things they say, even things they do.
I was part of a youth group that was trying to attack this head on with our kids during one of our (seperated) sessions - boys and girls one of the leaders informed the other leaders later one "unnamed" girl did NOT think oral sex was sex
this is exactly what I'm talking about, this is our kids. (sorry for the bluntness but thats what it going to take)
You will find that "right one" the Lord has for you in his timing, and you are so right you have a story that someone out there NEEDS to hear that is part of why God led you back here, but the other is for you to find healing, please continue to do both because you are a needed part of our family!!
Lord, I ask for Your presence to settle upon Robert and help him to heal from his past and move to the future with You at his side, I also ask that you give him peace in knowing You were in control of his brother's passing not him, and that no matter what he would have or could have done it was your will that allowed his leaving this earth to join You in heaven where there is NO more pain or suffering and now he is up there with You waiting for Robert to join when the time comes so they can be at peace with You forever
Amen
May God bless you Robert and give you the strength to continue the journey He has for you.
Cuc