Ah, Honey, sometimes in my own situation, I feel that the world out there really isn't as bad as it feels. And then I read about you and your situation and others like you.
Can you calm down enough to hear God? Try to get calm enough spiritually to hear Him.
He keeps telling me that he has it covered. That he knows my needs and that he knew all about this recession before it all began. That he uses the hard times to grow us more than in the other times. But, that I need to believe, and show it in my thoughts and words and actions, for him to be able to help me. If I am in a panic, then I really step on the hose, and slow down or stop the spiritual refreshment. And the flow of opportunities.
God forgives us for the past unbelief, but you need to get on the faith wagon. Every time a bad thought comes in - picture how you want your life to be - but give it to God. Maybe he wants to change your life. Maybe he's opened a door that you aren't even seeing in your panic.
I see God's work in all this - I really do. And most of the moments of the day, I'm on the faith wagon. But, I tell you, my legs and arms are pretty black and blue from falling off of it. Just got to keep climbing on and praising God.
Praising God - lift your arms and praise God whenever you get the panic attacks. It shoots the devil, gives him bad ouchies. Real bad.
God is in control. It's in Malachi - God made everything, so he made the materials that made the weapons that are being used against you. God is soooo in control - if we can praise and not panic. For longer than seems at all reasonable.
Patience .... ohhhh I hate that patience requirement. I really, really do. But, I see how I am changing for the better. I see how God has used this time to give me victory over anger. To get me to let go. To get me to realize that I was taking obligations onto myself that were not mine. To lead me to this site - if I had been fully employed, I never would have come here. God has used this recession to work miracles in me that will go with me into the next life. The money won't. The house won't. But, my patience, my shift in priorities, my faith ... those are permanent.
If you will trade panic for praise - your heart will be okay no matter what happens. And, according to the Psalms and Proverbs, you won't be begging bread. It is your heart that matters. Not your pride. Not your bank account. Your heart.
That's the lesson than I'm still being taught. And like I said, I am so bruised and battered from falling off that faith wagon - I can't even tell you. And I've been on it 90% of the time. Man, the hurts and pain I would have saved myself if I could have skipped a few times of falling off.