My Brokenhearted Prayer
Posted: Fri Jul 02, 2010 9:30 pmI have been in the chat room from time to time, and I am new, so do not know how many know me or know of me, but please keep me in you prayers, and I know everyone has more pressing issues, but I am heartbroken, and have been for a long time. I have prayed EVERY day for God to heal my heart, and give me the strength, but yet I find that I am weak and hurt still, over something that needs to be resolved. A ex-boyfriend has said hurtful things to me, that caused us to break up, 2 yrs ago, and I loved this man with all my heart, and could not understand why he said the things he did to me. They are too bad to say, but I live everyday with this, and I know in my heart that this is not the man that I known, that would say these things to me. It was like something evil took hold of him. I don't know, but since then, I have tried to make contact 2- 3 times in 2 yrs, and it has failed. I am trying to resolve this, cause my heart aches. I have forgiven him, and am not mad, and if he was to walk in and say he was sorry, I would tell him right away, that is ok, I have forgiven you, it does not matter. I was going to try 1 last time to make contact here in about a month, as I will have good news to share, and maybe that will be a start. My thing is how can you be with someone for 10 yrs, and then just drop off the face of the earth and never talk again? I know he has to be feeling something... but I guess that is not for me to know. So just keep me in you prayers. God is first in my life, but I do really love this man, and I know him, and this is not like him to ignore me, so just pray that God can mend this, in Jesus Name Amen. 