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Micah 7:7-9

7 Therefore I will look to the LORD; I will wait for the God of my salvation; My God will hear me.

8 Do not rejoice over me, my enemy; When I fall, I will arise; When I sit in darkness, The LORD will be a light to me.

9 I will bear the indignation of the LORD, Because I have sinned against Him, Until He pleads my case And executes justice for me. He will bring me forth to the light; I will see His righteousness. NKJV (emphasis mine)

We all go through trials and tribulations. We sometimes even go through chastisement, when we fail to listen to God's still small voice, pleading with us. Am I being chastised right now? No , but I am going through a trial. As I write this devotional I have been home bound with a disorder known as Dysautonomia for about 2 years, and 7 months. Dysautonomia is autonomic nervous system disorder, your autonomic nervous system controls everything that your body does for you, that you don't have to consciously think about. So when it doesn't work right, almost anything can go wrong, and it often does. Being home bound is hard for anyone, no matter what their age is. But as a teenager, not being able to go to school, participate in sports, to go a church service, to spend time with friends.... This is supposed to be my senior year of high school.... It hurts.
Now lately, I have discovered something that makes me feel better, and “Praise God” I have been able to take an incredible chunk out of my Dysautonomia. But I am still struggling with some symptoms, especially sensitivity to light, sound, smell, temperature changes/extreme temperatures, and touch. If I am around those things, I can become violently ill, i still cannot eat, i am dependent on my feeding tube, and I am still home bound. I still cannot go to school, or to a church service, or out to spend time with my friends.... my friends.... I have lost almost ALL of my old friends. They disappeared when I got sick, they PROMISED me they would come to see me, and they never did. The friends i have now for the most part are simply online friends. Friends i know through the computer, which is never, EVER, the same as being in the room with someone. I only leave the house on rare occasions, usually to go to a doctors appointment. when i do, even though i take measures to protect myself i almost always become sick anyway....
And this house I spend all my time in no longer feels like a nest, a comforting place to protect me from the outside world. It feels like my prison. When i look at walls around me decorated with pictures, paper snowflakes, and curtains, i see a cage. When i look out the windows its as if there are bars on them, because i know what might happen if i go outside.
But I am not alone in my prison. God is with me, He is a light unto me in this dark place in my life. Satan my enemy thinks he has won, he thinks he has trapped me here in a place where I can no longer serve God, where I can no longer be a witness, where he can torture me. But he has not, he does not know God's plan. He is foolish if he thinks that God will not use this trial to make me stronger, to mold me into something beautiful, and to touch people's lives. He is foolish if he thinks this trial will never end, no when I fall, when I hit the lowest parts of my life, I will arise, whether in this life or the next, It will not last forever. He is foolish if he thinks he has broken me. I am not broken. He is foolish if he thinks he can tell me that my prayers bounce off the sky, because my God will hear me. I will wait for the God of my salvation, I will wait for Him to execute justice, I will wait to see what beauty comes out of this trail I am going through.

*God please give me the wisdom when I'm going through trials and tribulations not to run, but to pray, and to cling to you and your promises.*

May God bless you as only He can



He has already been working in you, for one when you came here, now you can touch others here through your words

Cuc

AMEN!

Jesus Christ did not only come to save his people from their sins. But through the power of the Holy spirit we will be healed, and one day he will return, and death will be no more. The day will come sister, when he will restore your body, give you a new body, one that will hurt no more or age no more. He will wipe every tear. He will fill the void with so much love and joy, that you will be satisified. Your prison cell will be torn down, with a beautiful garden that awaits you, the day will come when you will feel the warmth of his light upon you.
Times are near, and we will see even more of his people performing miracles and wonders in his name. In the name of Jesus Christ, you will be healed.
In one of your posts you mentioned how Paul wrote some amazing things in prison. Logi your sharing and posting some amazing inspirations. Thanking your church/pastor for allowing you to post them to us, but if you didn't post it i wouldn't have read them. We need the whole body to work together, every part of that body is important. Thank you Logi.

Thankyou Cuc : ) its nice to know that im still being useful despite my confinement. : D

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Serve God, your words meant so much to me, and i can't wait til the day when i get my new body. I'm not sure which post you are referring to about Paul writing amazing things in prison, but some of my posts are written by my me and some are by one of the pastors of my church, so to make sure people don't get confused i always say so at the top if its not written by me. : )