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First of all, my struggle is with insecurity. Not knowing who I am as a person. Feeling that my self worth is tied to what others think of me. Needless to say, I have been in fear of people, social situations, relationships. I am doing the path. I'm weeding and feeding. I am doing well with that. I was up to Stone #4 Forgiveness, and I am working through some things. I know the Lord is working.

But I had a revelation of what is going on in my mind and it scared the dickens out of me. I went to my spirit-filled Bible study. After I came home, I ruminated about the events that evening. BUT with this CAVEAT! When a lady's face would come to mind, instead of the loving words they had said originally, I gave them VOICE (in my thoughts) directed at me: "You're a bother." "You have too many problems." blah, blah, blah. So what I realize is that I am slandering the other loving person and attributing to them things they have never said or would never say or think. They are born again, blood bought believers in Christ. It would grieve their spirit and God's.

So, it's like a double curse upon my head. I'm twisting their words and those twisted words are pointed back at me, critically judging me. I am amazed I have survived in this world this long. I'm looking at it now and realizing what a heavy burden - no human being can carry that weight. No wonder I have had so much fear and have not been able to receive fully the love and grace of God. To feel his good pleasure in me.

I praise God for the revelation. I see that satan was losing his grips on my everyday normal thoughts so he switched tactics but God allowed me to understand what was happening. I am sure I had been doing this all of my life, but until I started digging, I didn't realize what I was doing.

Has anyone heard of this or experienced anything like it? I know I am getting closer to deliverance from this bondage. I am getting really excited. God is so good!

Hello Dabs

What an awesome revelation, indeed!!! Hallelujah!!! Thank You Holy Spirit for revealing that to you.

Dabs, the enemy of our souls can be relentless in his attempts to keep us from walking in God's holy light. But, be comforted, The Comforter, The Holy Spirit is right there with you, and He will continue with you.

I'm celebrating with you, Dabs. God is so very Good!!! Thank You Jesus. Woooooooohoooooo!!!

Dabs, there is scripture in the Old Testament that talks about the time period after the Millennium or the 1000 years of peace, after The End Times. See at the end of the 7-year period of The End Times, the antichrist and the false prophet are thrown into the Lake of Fire forever, but Satan is thrown in the pit for 1000 years, to be let out again later on the earth for a "season". Ok, so after the 1000 years of peace, God let's satan out of the pit, and guess what???

Ezekiel 38:10 Thus saith the Lord God; It shall also come to pass, that at the same time shall things come into thy mind, and thou shalt think an evil thought:

WOW!!! Wonder why all of a sudden when the people remaining on the earth after the End Times, and have lived in peace for 1000 years, but then suddenly they have an "evil thought" come into their mind?

Because Satan was let out of the pit for a season.

Dabs, do you see the point I'm trying to make? Satan does what satan does best...stir up trouble and plant ugly, sinful thoughts into peoples' minds.

I love the blessed revelation that The Holy Spirit gave you. Hallelujah!!! Even though the enemy of our souls is crafty, God is not fooled one bit, and The Holy Spirit is all about teaching us how to combat the attacks of the enemy.

Wooooooooohoooooooo!!! Praise God. Thank You Jesus!!!

Awwwww Dabs, thank you so much for sharing the revelation with us. It's powerful!!! It is God!!!

God bless and keep you.
Love,
Mack