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PostPosted: Sun Apr 04, 2010 3:22 am
by baileyblack09
So, as many of you know.. I was pregnant.. Welllllllll.. I did something horrible and I'm a horrible person and I wanna die for doing this, but, I'm not anymore. My boyfriend(who is now an ex.. thanks prayerful (: ) convinced me that it would be better if I got an abortion. I listened to him.. I was wondering.. Will God still love me for doing something so mean and horrible and wrong? Please y'all.. don't hate me.. :(

PostPosted: Sun Apr 04, 2010 4:24 am
by momof3
Sis, what pain you are carrying. i know this pain well. I know the guilt. This child is the Lord's child. Ask Him for forgiveness, sis..and then let Him begin to heal you.

I know how hard this was to bring to light. Ask and receive His forgiveness and healing, my sister.

I have been where you are. if youd like to talk, please feel free to pm me anytime..God loves you sis...the same as He did the day He thought of creating you.

im praying for you, my sister. seek Him in this.

in Jesus,
love momo *Halo*

PostPosted: Sun Apr 04, 2010 6:09 am
by goldieluvs
awww bailey sis *hug* God IS Love. He ALWAYS loves us including the times when we do things we later regret and hurt over even when we blame Him for things that go wrong in our lives (been there, done that)

He doesn't STOP loving, He LOVES more. See, regardless of what we as miserable lil humans running around this earth do.... God LOVES ALL. He desires for us to be with Him forever! He died for us as reconciliation for all our sins. Every single person. Mine; yours; everyone else you may meet. Jesus took on all of it.

I too had an abortion many many years ago. I was young and stupid (now i am just old and stupid :) ) Yet God gives me understanding of what works for me. HE IS! Bailey sis, things change in an instant. None of us know exactly what tomorrow will bring.

But please if nothing else, take comfort in knowing in ur heart that Jesus KNEW how our lives would be, He KNOWS EVERYTHING and yet He still LOVES. He CHOSE to go to the cross out of that Love. Run to Him. Seek His Peace and forgiveness, get healing. God is the ultimate healer sis. Oh and let yourself off the hook too sis.

I learned not accepting God's forgiveness (weird as that may sound) was only holding me back from Him. Ok lemme try and explain that a lil. I would hold unto guilt. Feeling like i should be punished cuz i was wrong. Knowing that there should be a price to pay. Well, Jesus already PAID that price. Jesus has allready forgiven me, it was gone. Holding onto guilt is so NOT what Jesus is about. He dries ALL our tears. We all make mistakes, No ONE is perfect; not one of us here. Grab onto the healing that God brings sis.

luv u bailey, if u ever wanna talk pm me sis.
*HippiePeace*

PostPosted: Sun Apr 04, 2010 7:43 am
by mlg
awww bailey, my precious sister...our God is a forgiving God and yes if you repent and tell Him that you are sorry and need His forgiveness...He will forgive you...the thing is sis...you have to forgive yourself as well. I encourage you to contact momof3 or goldie if you need someone who will understand during this time sis....just remember Jesus loves you so much He gave up His life so you could have freedom from the sins you commit.

Praying for you.

luv ya

PostPosted: Sun Apr 04, 2010 2:37 pm
by baileyblack09
Thanks y'all for all of your kind words.. I am anxious to see how God's going to work in me through this situation. I went to church this morning and had a conversation with this lady who was 4 months pregnant.. I ended up bawling and telling her.. She gave me the warmest most kindest hug I've ever had and told me pretty much everything y'all just told me.

You see, I know God has a plan for me, I know He knows my actions before I even think about taking them. I know that there are consequences for my actions, but there are also good things that come out of this. I know that I made a HUGEEEEE mistake, but, I also know that I was not ready for a child, I know I was not with the man I knew God wanted me to have a child with. BUT when I am with the guy that God has found for me, I know we will have children, and those children will be the most loved and Godly children on this side of Houston.

I know I should be upset, but, the weird thing is, I'm not. Yes, I regret doing what I did, but, I also feel a peace.. God has taken my hurt and my pain away and placed it in His hands. I know my Daddy has His arms tight tight tight around me, and He will not be letting go anytime soon.. I am PERFECTLY fine with that. :)