heya bailey, sis.
God bless you!
ya know, yesterday was a really tricky day for me. It was the 5th year anniversary, for lack of a better term, of my mom's passing. I woke up thinking about it. I prayed half-heartedly about it to the Lord and got out of bed not putting on my armor. As the day went on...(these thoughts still in the back of my mind and my not really focusing on the good part of her going home, but just kinda pushing the thoughts back) as the day went on, one small thing after another kept piling on. These were just every day little things.....then i get a not so nice phone call followed by a very emotional trial, and wham!!! im thinkin...the whole world has gone mad..or is it just me???
The enemy knows us very well. He knows what triggers to pull and where to send the bullets. He knows where old hurts are and knows if he can whisper things to us and try to get to those places, he is certain to get a the same ol reaction. What he also knows is if he can keep us in the same place, and keep us focused on all those painful things, we wont be looking for the weeds that lie underneath all those emotions..like anger.
We are all gonna have tricky days...if there's a weed there that is causing you to keep reacting the same way...gotta get to the truth and you and the Lord pull that puppy out. Get to the root of it. Have you gone through the CCCC steps offered here? if so, maybe walk through em again. There may be something that was missed the first time through..and...it doesnt matter how many times you go through them...we gotta weed every day that we are alive on this earth.
love ya sis. am here for you, too.
God bless you,
in Jesus,
love momo