a sin i want to lay aside
Posted: Sat Jan 10, 2009 7:30 am
...let us strip off and throw aside every encumbrance (unnecessary weight) and that sin which so readily (deftly and cleverly) clings to and entangles us,....
i want to STRIP OFF and THROW ASIDE the sin of gluttony which is DEFTLY and CLEVERLY CLINGING and ENTANGLING me !!
its not that i don't know what to do. i do. i've been on many diets and i have lost weight on every one of them; lots of weight; every diet was successful!! ... i just revert back to gaining .... this has shown me that it isn't so much to food itself, altho that is important as well. its my relationship to the food .... why i eat. i don't want to 'diet' i want to change my perspective.
i was starting to loose weight ... but then i quit smoking and my weightloss has stopped ... and my gluttony is being exacerbated it. i wish that loosing weight was like quitting smoking .... you don't have to learn how to smoke properly ... you just have to STOP doing it. not that it was easy, addictions are very personal and hard. however, this gluttony is actually worse for me than the addiction was to smoking.
seee, how easy i fall into blaming something else for it!! OMG .... its time to stop. i want be able to loose the weight and enjoy all His food that He has given ... the way He meant it to be enjoyed ... without over-doing.
i am opening up here because i need help in this; it will help me to be accountable to you here. these are the parameters that i've set for myself.
1. to workout every day
2. to walk every day
3. to eat ZERO inverted sugar
4. to organize my food for myself for the day as i have a blood sugar problem (this is a big key for me)
5. DO NOT eat while on any screens (watching tv/computer/movies)
i am giving you permission to hold me accountable in these areas; please ask me.
in order for this to be effective for me i am going to put my measurements here .... i don't go by weight loss, size is more important to me. right now i am a size XL or about a 16/18 depending on the make of clothing .... i want to be size m or about a 10/12 by mid summer and by the fall early winter, i want to be a size s ... about a 6/8.
i have been a size small, many times; my frame is small and i am little ... this isn't unreasonable or unhealthy for me. which brings me to my final point .... its about health also. carrying extra weight is hard on my back and joints .... as i age, i want to able to be physically fit and mobile.
upper arm - 13 1/3 "
waist - 38"
hips - 46"
thigh - 26"
i'm not looking for maximum shrinkage .... just a slow progress, as i learn.
thank you for your help.
i want to STRIP OFF and THROW ASIDE the sin of gluttony which is DEFTLY and CLEVERLY CLINGING and ENTANGLING me !!
its not that i don't know what to do. i do. i've been on many diets and i have lost weight on every one of them; lots of weight; every diet was successful!! ... i just revert back to gaining .... this has shown me that it isn't so much to food itself, altho that is important as well. its my relationship to the food .... why i eat. i don't want to 'diet' i want to change my perspective.
i was starting to loose weight ... but then i quit smoking and my weightloss has stopped ... and my gluttony is being exacerbated it. i wish that loosing weight was like quitting smoking .... you don't have to learn how to smoke properly ... you just have to STOP doing it. not that it was easy, addictions are very personal and hard. however, this gluttony is actually worse for me than the addiction was to smoking.
seee, how easy i fall into blaming something else for it!! OMG .... its time to stop. i want be able to loose the weight and enjoy all His food that He has given ... the way He meant it to be enjoyed ... without over-doing.
i am opening up here because i need help in this; it will help me to be accountable to you here. these are the parameters that i've set for myself.
1. to workout every day
2. to walk every day
3. to eat ZERO inverted sugar
4. to organize my food for myself for the day as i have a blood sugar problem (this is a big key for me)
5. DO NOT eat while on any screens (watching tv/computer/movies)
i am giving you permission to hold me accountable in these areas; please ask me.
in order for this to be effective for me i am going to put my measurements here .... i don't go by weight loss, size is more important to me. right now i am a size XL or about a 16/18 depending on the make of clothing .... i want to be size m or about a 10/12 by mid summer and by the fall early winter, i want to be a size s ... about a 6/8.
i have been a size small, many times; my frame is small and i am little ... this isn't unreasonable or unhealthy for me. which brings me to my final point .... its about health also. carrying extra weight is hard on my back and joints .... as i age, i want to able to be physically fit and mobile.
upper arm - 13 1/3 "
waist - 38"
hips - 46"
thigh - 26"
i'm not looking for maximum shrinkage .... just a slow progress, as i learn.
thank you for your help.