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Posted: Tue May 06, 2008 9:17 pmHey, everyone. I had a realization today and don't quite know what to make of it yet.
I was thinking about someone else and their post. It led me to think about my abuser, ex-husband, and how I felt about him. I realized that some time ago, I stopped thinking of him as a person. I think of him as a sort of icon of evil and pain.
I thought I had forgiven him. But I never thought of actually speaking to him and praying for him. When I began to imagine this, it became clear that if we met face to face again, there would be issues. (I haven't seen him in like a decade and don't even know where he is)
Perhaps this is a good thing to realize. I believe in unconditional forgiveness. Now I know that I have not given it to him and have reduced him in my mind to being less than human. This may be my chance to truly forgive and take another step towards healing.
God bless and protect everyone.
I was thinking about someone else and their post. It led me to think about my abuser, ex-husband, and how I felt about him. I realized that some time ago, I stopped thinking of him as a person. I think of him as a sort of icon of evil and pain.
I thought I had forgiven him. But I never thought of actually speaking to him and praying for him. When I began to imagine this, it became clear that if we met face to face again, there would be issues. (I haven't seen him in like a decade and don't even know where he is)
Perhaps this is a good thing to realize. I believe in unconditional forgiveness. Now I know that I have not given it to him and have reduced him in my mind to being less than human. This may be my chance to truly forgive and take another step towards healing.
God bless and protect everyone.