dealing with destructive emotions
Posted: Tue May 24, 2011 4:00 am
i was rejected by my father, if i wanted to sit in his lap he threw me to the ground. the only time he was affectionate was when he was drunk. i had to fight to get away from him. he would grab me by the throat shake his fist at me and tell me how worthless iam. my mother did nothing. the men i liked didnt like me the same way so again i felt rejected. i hate it when friends date/marry. im supposed to automatically be friends with them which is hard for me since i dont trust. God spoke to me tonight and said im jealous of those who are loved since i never experienced it. i broke down. i knew i had feelings of anger, bitterness and resentment but didnt know that jealousy was the root cause. im thankful that He revealed that to me so i can change it. He also spoke words of comfort that everything i lost will be retured to me, that He will turn all bad into good if i trust Him. im hoping this is the breakthrough ive been waiting for and a new beginning. Has anyone else gone through these feelings? how did you overcome them? VIP - Victor In Progress