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I know that a lot of my trials and struggles are because I need to get to the root of where all my reactions come from. I grew up with verbal abuse at home and harassment in school.
Sometimes I think I am over stuff but I realize I am still reacting to things the same way I used to. I usually just avoid.
I am a very sensitive person and get emotional easily, so I usually keep it all in so I don't lose it and cry in an inappropriate setting like at work. I cry to God but I realize I need to dig in and find where all this comes from and get it out.

I feel like some pressure is lifted just typing that. I guess I really needed to let some things out.

Hello ljeanne

I want to welcome you to the Oasis. Glad you are getting some stuff out.

This is a safe place to do so. Keep on.

Here for you if you ever want to talk. So is the Lord.

God bless and keep you.

my dear, welcome to oasis....tears are good...I understand how you do not want to cry in the wrong places, but it shows me that your hurt is very much on the surface of your emotions.

Just like when hurt in our physical body, so it is in our mind will and emotions, wounds can be still very sensitive to touch...and need healing, some take longer than others, but sometimes we look after our physical bodies, and forget we are a three part being
body, soul and spirit

so in feeling like you do, tells us that you need some prayer and care..do you have any one close to you that you can talk stuff out with?
we are all here for you, any time..but some times its good to be able to pick up the phone and call someone at times..

keeping in "stuff" is not a way to deal with anything, because it does not go away, no matter how much we push it down, that's all it is, pushed down.
only to rise again at anything that will trigger it
We have a Lord that has been touched with everything that we will ever go through,so He fully understand
By His stripes we have healing...not only physically, but emotionally as well
so the root of your reactions? ...unhealed hurts...
so now we need to pray for those hurts to be healed..not just putting a band aid on them...

sometimes it's hard to do that, because it opens wounds..but the lord is your strong tower..and help in time of need...


sorry for going on and on .....we are here for you to talk more...

we understand you....
Father..I pray that you take this dear one into you arms...and pour out your love upon her...perfect love casts out all fear...

reach down right into the depths of her being..and heal the root cause of all her problems..and as her wounds are opened for healing....give her you grace to get through the pain times...

we trust in you lord...
I leave my sister in your love and care...

and thank you for hearing and seeing her hearts cry...to be free

we know you are the lord of all, and you did come to see us free...

thank you lord for this dear one....
heal her I pray in Jesus Name
Amen

Thank you for those responses and for the prayers.
I had started a journey of healing but got off track and let it go. I realize that I need to dig in and get to work.
Right now I find it hard to talk to anyone, partly because of trust issues, and also because of belief differences of family and friends. I do sometimes call in for prayer at my church if I am going through something. I guess I need to work on all that.

Just keep on pressing forward....yes, asking for prayer..asking God who you can talk to..keep bring everything out in the light..then the enemy of our soul cannot work on stuff we keep hidden...bring it out..and see bondage's lifting as you do...
Father, thank you Lord, for setting my sister free...
IN Jesus Name
Amen

Sometimes people don't realize that verbal abuse is worse then physical abuse...leads to withdrawal and mistrust in the future. I wrote a post on it and think you should read it. May help
http://www.christianityoasis.com/Member ... hp?t=19208
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Thank you those are some really good ideas, about breaking word curses. I never thought of my own negative self talk that way.

I just ministered a message at a convalescent home service and just thougt I'd share.
This is the gist of it...

God esteem or self esteem

Eph 3:8 Unto me, who am less than the least of all saints, is this grace given

Paul preach the gospel to many people in many places. He traveled all over the place and preached with boldness. he is considered to be the one who did the most to spread the gospel but here he says he is the least of all saints


The world might say from what Paul said that he had low self esteem but I want to share with you this thought.

Sometimes it is easy to get caught up in our problems because they seem so big. We worry or despair because it seems like we can't get past this We might think badly about ourselves because we know that we are not as strong as we would like to be. but God wants us all to know how strong he is, and how much he wants to help us.

(Eph 1:17) That the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give unto you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of him:


(Eph 1:18) The eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that ye may know what is the hope of his calling, and what the riches of the glory of his inheritance in the saints,


(Eph 1:19) And what is the exceeding greatness of his power to us-ward who believe, according to the working of his mighty power,

God wants us to know him and to know that he has power that he wants to direct toward our lives to help us.

(Eph 1:20) Which he wrought in Christ, when he raised him from the dead, and set him at his own right hand in the heavenly places,

(Eph 1:21) Far above all principality, and power, and might, and dominion, and every name that is named, not only in this world, but also in that which is to come:

(Eph 1:22) And hath put all things under his feet, and gave him to be the head over all things to the church,


Jesus is Lord over all things in this world, and in heaven.
Including any trial we are going through, anything we might worry about or any fear we may have.


(Eph 3:16) That he would grant you, according to the riches of his glory, to be strengthened with might by his Spirit in the inner man;

The bible says that he can strengthen us with might by his Spirit
So when we feel weak, he is strong and can bring strength to us
We need to know God better to know his power in our lives but we also need to understand his love for us. And that he is not looking to use his power in a way that would harm us

Jer 29:11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

God has thoughts of peace when he thinks of us.

God also wants us to know how much he loves us.

(Eph 3:17) That Christ may dwell in your hearts by faith; that ye, being rooted and grounded in love,

(Eph 3:18) May be able to comprehend with all saints what is the breadth, and length, and depth, and height;

(Eph 3:19) And to know the love of Christ, which passeth knowledge, that ye might be filled with all the fullness of God.

(Eph 3:20) Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us,

God loves us so much ! His love is bigger than anything in our lives.
Sometimes I forget that and let my problems get to me because the problems look so huge. I have to keep reminding myself of God's love and power.
That he can do above and beyond what we could ever do on our own or even dare to think is possible.

(Eph 3:7) Whereof I was made a minister, according to the gift of the grace of God given unto me by the effectual working of his power.


Eph 3:8 Unto me, who am less than the least of all saints, is this grace given, that I should preach among the Gentiles the unsearchable riches of Christ;


Paul had a good understanding that he was not this great man and that it was God's grace and power that made it possible to do all that he did.
I think Paul's esteem was just focused on God and not on himself. Paul knew he was just an ordinary person but also knew how much God loved him and that God could do anything.
Paul understood that God's strength can help us in our weaknesses. He had high God esteem!

I have been thinking more and more about the title of this forum Life beyond walls. What would that actually be like? No walls.
When did I start building them? I guess I was young.
I just remember how much I loved dancing and wanted to be a dancer but knew I had to keep it a secret because that dream would have been trampled all over if I ever revealed it. I never took lessons as a result.
I learned you do not cry in front of anyone either. That was a no, no. I remember being so shocked to see my older sister cry. I thought that adults never cried. She is ten years older and was probably 16 at the time but she seemed like an adult to me.
Walls were built because people could not be trusted to see who I really was. When they did there was criticism, bullying, or disregard. So I shrunk further and further inside.
Now I have these walls that make it hard to get in or out. I know things have gotten better over the last six or seven years because I started healing but then stopped for some reason.
Then I just got stuck. I haven't moved forward or backward. God has been nudging me but I only just started to try to move. It feels overwhelming and suddenly this anxiety has come over me. I know it is just the enemy trying to intimidate me because he did that to me before.
I feel raw at times. Like I could loose it.
I need that full armor instead of these walls.