Not so sure
Posted: Sun Sep 26, 2010 1:06 am
As many of u know i have shared about how i felt like i had forgiven my bio father. There is one thing that i haven't shared yet and it popped into my brain so am sharing here. My bio father (self proclaimed preacher, alcoholic) had given me a bible with inscription of "God richly blessed me when ok idk something to effect cuz i was sent to live with him.....
anyways.... i couldn't bring myself to look at it. I tore out the dedication page, still wasn't able to use it. So, years ago..... I gave it to my therapist and told him to give it away, to leave it lying in a pew somewhere or something. Well, the last time i saw him (years ago) he brought up that he had found that bible in the attic or somewhere and he said when i had come full circle that i would be able to take it back.
Now, idk if he even still has it, I could email him and ask him though its been several years. But thing is....... would i be able to even look at it????
I have several bibles, a NIV, NKJV, and am waiting on a Life Recovery bible...
Soooo, i reckon what i wonder is if i truly have forgiven my bio father cuz of the whole bible thing.....
anyways.... i couldn't bring myself to look at it. I tore out the dedication page, still wasn't able to use it. So, years ago..... I gave it to my therapist and told him to give it away, to leave it lying in a pew somewhere or something. Well, the last time i saw him (years ago) he brought up that he had found that bible in the attic or somewhere and he said when i had come full circle that i would be able to take it back.
Now, idk if he even still has it, I could email him and ask him though its been several years. But thing is....... would i be able to even look at it????
I have several bibles, a NIV, NKJV, and am waiting on a Life Recovery bible...
Soooo, i reckon what i wonder is if i truly have forgiven my bio father cuz of the whole bible thing.....