I am losing the battle......and giving in.....
Posted: Sat Sep 25, 2010 8:04 pm
I am sorry to all of my friends here at the Oasis. I try to stay with it...do what I know I need to do....live the way I know to live.....to trust Him.....but it is a lost cause. I feel like I am a waste of time to everyone in here. You all are so gentle, non-judgemental, and accepting, and willing to help but maybe I am one of those people who just can't be helped. I have lost a good portion of my faith and trust. I am so confused and am seeking comfort in other places. Not good places.....not places I would want Jesus to go in with me....I must be crazy.....no sane person does these things....no one in their right mind would be able to do this and not die of guilt and shame! All I can say is that I am sorry.....please forgive me.....