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Hi everyone. Name's Erinn, I'm 18 and I love Jesus and I love music. I'm new to this forum... but obviously since I'm here I do struggle with sexual sin.

I don't feel the need to reiterate the complete confession I posted in the counseling forum, but I struggle with pornography and masturbation. It has been a problem for at least half of my life, and I've never been able to break free. Since my first confession (be it online) to someone last year, the struggle has increased, although i haven't been as depressed, and when college started this became much less of a problem as others arose. However, times when I come home, like now, the same old habits appear. I'm not dealing with it while I'm at college, and i'm certainly not praying and reading my Bible for the strength to overcome it. That's my main problem. I avoid God. I'm not even sure why. I know I need him more than ever. I just hate myself immensely for what I do, and continue to do no matter what I try. I pray, mainly, that I would have the strength and willpower to pray my butt off so I can find strength and satisfaction in God, and for the strength and more importantly the opportunity to tell someone in person who I can actually see on a regular basis and who can hold me accountable. That would help hugely.

Anyway, that's where I'm coming from

Hi erin nice to have you aboard!

i'm certainly not praying and reading my Bible for the strength to overcome it. That's my main problem. I avoid God.

sounds like you already realise some of the solution


When we try to do it on our own, it just wont work.. it might for a while, but ive never got past it by myself. God wants us to be in realtionship with HIm. He doesnt make a set of rules and regulations because He's a mean God. He sets guidelines because He wants us to be in close relationship with Him. Ever notice how when you confess your sins to Him you feel so much closer to HIm? Like a sense of relief? He just loves us and wants to be close to us. Guilt and condemnation drives a wedge between the relationship, we lose that closeness and bond with Him. And He is such a forgiving God! He waits for us to return like the prodigal son. He sends out searches, He waits excitedly then when He sees us coming He comes out to meet us! He dont scold us, He wraps His arms around us and puts the best robe on our back and fine jewels on our fingers, and throws us a party! Wow thats a good Dad!

Ask Him to replace yr desires and urges and ask Him to draw close to you, Let HIm know your own yr way back, He cant wait to re-establish yr relationship.

Gb sis
♥Jill

got your post. praying 4u. many hugs and best wishes with college that's a big important experience.

obtw, i fall down alot. an awful lot. something that seems to be helping me is to keep moving with God anyway. So even if i hit the pavement face first with my sin, i keep reading my bible and praying and journaling. it really does help me. don't know how God does it, but He does adjust my soul someway or another and lessons the death grip of the sin in my heart/mind. it's just my two cents. i've gotten it from Romans 8:28. the transformation is a metamorphosis.

gotta run,

gbu,
whisp