my story

[Guest]

Ok i was told could post on here what has happened to me and that no one will place judgment...this is really hard for me so if i quit in the middle thats why

On Sep. 30,2006 i got my belly botton pierced and not to many hours after that i was raped.

Im sorry i can't seen to add alot more than that now but i believe that my biggest problem is that i can't seem to take my belly ring out. I feel like keeping it in reminds me that no matter the situation that i will never loose that much control again.

I know that the control is in gods hands, but i know that i NEVER want to go threw that again and to me its hard. Hard that i try to give him the control and i know i take it back every time but i thinks its because im afraid that i will run into that man again.

I seen the man a little while ago and i froze all i could think was he was going to do it to me again. I have forgaven him but i don't feel comfortable around him. I don't wish to "rub elbows " with him, or be his best friend.

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ree

Welcome to the SOS forum. We are so glad you are here and sharing with us. You know ree, what happened to you is not your fault. That man chose to do something to you that He had no right to do. But...as you said forgiveness for that man is the best path, and pray for Him as well sis...because the enemy is in control of that man.

Ree I want you to know that God has forgiven you for all things through His son Jesus. Do not blame yourself sis...we are here for you. We will not judge you and we want you to feel comfortable here.

Jesus loves you ree...He wants to help heal you. It may not seem like it but you deserve healing from this.

Another for ya.

Take care and God Bless

[xxJILLxx]

ree I would also like to welcome you to the sos forum!


Im am so sorry for what you have been through. It takes alot of courage to post on this board and i commend you for that.

If you havent tried the counseling steps here i think they would be very beneficial for you.

GOd loves you and he dont want to see you struggling with this anymore, lay all your burdens and past hurts down at the cross and leave them there. Keep pressing forward, keep praying and stay in His word.

praying for you ree

Gb
♥Jill

[Christnundrconstruxn]

Ree
I know you probably don't want to hear from a man about this but I had to say something to you
first I am so sorry for what has happend and I admire that even with all you have endured you still forgive GOD BLESS YOU!!!
I must tell you that I almost became "that guy" to someone very dear to me at one time and luckily the grace of God stopped me and I will never come close to crossing that line again!!
for only moments of pleasure (if you could have pleasure in doing that to someone) to cause that kinda pain for someone all because of the filth that satan plants in our minds saying "it's ok"
I pray that you are able to heal and not feel you lost that control which that man TOOK from you, you WILL be alright because I cannot see our Lord allowing you not to be!!
GOD BLESS YOU!! you ARE a strong woman!! we love you!!

[Lani]

Hey Ree!

First, I am so glad to see ya posting sis.... It is very brave of you to speak out about such.

Rape is an awful thing to experience. Often, we place blame on ourselves... I did anyway.

For the pain you are dealing with sis... I am sorry. Please know: This is not your fault... he made a poor choice, sadly you were to victim of that choice.
It is Not your fault... belly ring or not, sis it doesn't excuse the poor choice he made. Release yourself from the guilt... forgive you and know this truth:

Papa can and will help you heal.

My suggestion sis, If I may and it is absolutely your choice: consider the belly ring, pray about it ... is it truly a reminder not to loose control or is it holding the grieving of this horrible event over you? You need not punish yourself for that choice.... I pierced my nose when I was 13 (at camp).... thankfully, Papa and my father... shed some truth on that choice...

I'd like to invite you to consider taking a look at this study...

http://www.christianityoasis.com/Keywor ... Purity.htm

It helped me tremendously.... I pray it will do the same for you.

Judgement is one thing you needn't concern yourself with here sis.

You know I am always around if you wish to talk.

Luv ya!