Posted: Fri Sep 11, 2009 11:14 am
I'm glad I read this before I typed my post today cause I was about to start a new topic about my trial with temptation and my ultimate overcoming of it.
So I was online last night like I usually am and a use to be sexual partner of mine popped on and said hello to me and asked me what I was doing on Sunday. Well I have drill this weekend so I said that I would be at drill. For those of you that don't know when I say drill I mean that I am going to my Army National Guard training. Anyway he was like well after drill you want to come down and see me. Well I don't have a car and besides my one weekend a month I'm not working right now so I told him all of this and he was like I will pay for you to take the train down here or to take a bus. HMMMMMM....I was thinking to myself...why oh why does he want to see me this bad....HMMMM....
Well the first thing I asked him was is the only reason you want to see me is becasue you want sex out of me. It took him a while to reply to that and as he was thinking I typed out another message that went to the tone of never mind that question is sex any of the reason why you want to see me....and I got a no reply...HMMMMMM I thought to myself again...and as I was thinking he came back with well I won't force myself on you...and I thought to myself well thats great cause I would probably report you....
And so the conversation went on and yes ultimatly he wanted sex...I told him that I wasn't gonna do it...I shared that I already struggle with sexual sin and that I've been working really hard to keep the temptation away from me so that I can grow and become what God wants me to become. He gave me the guilt trip after that...oh so you don't like me...I'm not attractive now...I told him that I like him fine as a friend and that he is very attractive to me and thats a reason that he probably should just stay away cause I know that if I saw him that I would be tempted and probably fall to it....And I'm not saying that I dont want to have sex in my flesh cause I really do but I've been doing well well being able to resist temptation so far and I don't want to put yet anohter road block in my way. I'm trying so hard to do God's will and I don't want to take steps backwards if I can help it and not seeing this guy I can help.
Yeah I know that was really long...sorry bout that....but I wanted to share...I was so proud of myself for resisting and I prayed after I talked to him and thanked God for watching over me.
Love you guys,
verdad
So I was online last night like I usually am and a use to be sexual partner of mine popped on and said hello to me and asked me what I was doing on Sunday. Well I have drill this weekend so I said that I would be at drill. For those of you that don't know when I say drill I mean that I am going to my Army National Guard training. Anyway he was like well after drill you want to come down and see me. Well I don't have a car and besides my one weekend a month I'm not working right now so I told him all of this and he was like I will pay for you to take the train down here or to take a bus. HMMMMMM....I was thinking to myself...why oh why does he want to see me this bad....HMMMM....
Well the first thing I asked him was is the only reason you want to see me is becasue you want sex out of me. It took him a while to reply to that and as he was thinking I typed out another message that went to the tone of never mind that question is sex any of the reason why you want to see me....and I got a no reply...HMMMMMM I thought to myself again...and as I was thinking he came back with well I won't force myself on you...and I thought to myself well thats great cause I would probably report you....
And so the conversation went on and yes ultimatly he wanted sex...I told him that I wasn't gonna do it...I shared that I already struggle with sexual sin and that I've been working really hard to keep the temptation away from me so that I can grow and become what God wants me to become. He gave me the guilt trip after that...oh so you don't like me...I'm not attractive now...I told him that I like him fine as a friend and that he is very attractive to me and thats a reason that he probably should just stay away cause I know that if I saw him that I would be tempted and probably fall to it....And I'm not saying that I dont want to have sex in my flesh cause I really do but I've been doing well well being able to resist temptation so far and I don't want to put yet anohter road block in my way. I'm trying so hard to do God's will and I don't want to take steps backwards if I can help it and not seeing this guy I can help.
Yeah I know that was really long...sorry bout that....but I wanted to share...I was so proud of myself for resisting and I prayed after I talked to him and thanked God for watching over me.
Love you guys,
verdad