Im sorry.
Posted: Wed Oct 01, 2008 2:04 amhey guys. Ive posted on a few different boards before but I never thought I would have to post on this one. some of you know Ive been abused by my step-dad in the past and I was dealing with that just fine but now Im not really sure where to start or even that I want to say anything but I kinda feel like I have to cause keeping it all locked inside is destroying me.
a lot have you have been asking where Ive been in the last few months and this will probably fill you in...with the truth instead of the lies Ive been feeding people.
about 9 or 10 months ago I started dating a friend of mine and for the first few months it was great but then he confided in me that before he moved to my town he had shot someone(but just wounded them), he told me it was self defence and he would never do it again. I was scared to begin with but I moved passed it even though it still bothered me but I accepted it despite my better judgement and people telling me I should leave him, then he started getting controling and very angry toward me and my friends who were telling me to leave him. he distracted me from my friends and my family even my school work was taking away from his time with me. over the passed two months Ive been really agrivating him and he's hit me a few times but I guess I kinda deserved it but a couple of weeks ago I just couldnt take it anymore and I broke up with him, I had to change my cell number so he would stop calling me, and although it has nothing to do with him, my family (who I still havnt told this) and I are moving this weekend. I feel like he's just taken back 2 years of progress I had made into getting over what my step-dad did and now Im not only afraid of my ex, Im also afraid of my step-dad again(not that the fear ever really left). I guess the people that told me to get out were right, and Im so sorry now that I didnt listen. I really wish I could rewind and do it over again but I cant andI really hope they forgive me for being so dumb.
a lot have you have been asking where Ive been in the last few months and this will probably fill you in...with the truth instead of the lies Ive been feeding people.
about 9 or 10 months ago I started dating a friend of mine and for the first few months it was great but then he confided in me that before he moved to my town he had shot someone(but just wounded them), he told me it was self defence and he would never do it again. I was scared to begin with but I moved passed it even though it still bothered me but I accepted it despite my better judgement and people telling me I should leave him, then he started getting controling and very angry toward me and my friends who were telling me to leave him. he distracted me from my friends and my family even my school work was taking away from his time with me. over the passed two months Ive been really agrivating him and he's hit me a few times but I guess I kinda deserved it but a couple of weeks ago I just couldnt take it anymore and I broke up with him, I had to change my cell number so he would stop calling me, and although it has nothing to do with him, my family (who I still havnt told this) and I are moving this weekend. I feel like he's just taken back 2 years of progress I had made into getting over what my step-dad did and now Im not only afraid of my ex, Im also afraid of my step-dad again(not that the fear ever really left). I guess the people that told me to get out were right, and Im so sorry now that I didnt listen. I really wish I could rewind and do it over again but I cant andI really hope they forgive me for being so dumb.
