A gift is only as beautiful as it is received
Posted: Thu Jun 04, 2009 7:00 pmYep , that's the title came came to mind , after almost a day's worth of prayer and meditation on the subject I'm about to share for all to read hoping someone will benefit from it and/or respond with a better outlook should mine be in disagreement . Although I may veer off the subject of what the title is saying (which by the way is not or rather was not my intent to write about ) but when something, anything is Spirit driven , who am I to hold back . (Ah , hold back) that's what my intent is to write about .
No matter how well we think of the person and hold them in reverence , that we be willing to go out of our way , save up all we can by making sacrifices and doing without other necessities in order to give that person the best that WE think they deserve , and no matter how beautiful , expensive , unique or one of a kind that gift may be , if the person does not receive it in appreciation , all scores for the effort will read ZERO , even if the rest of the world recognize its worth and be held in amazement . Take for example our Lord , if we dont receive Him with grace and love , God's sacrifice of His only begotten just because He so loved us , and the life that Jesus willingly laid on the line for us just to show us a better way , all the scores for the effort will read ZERO, (in vain) .
My original idea for a title was a question I asked a dear friend last night was , " what if someone was put in a position where they have to hide God ? " that question came about as my response to the question tossed at me as to why am I so afraid to show love ?
The above paragraph should sum it up .
Love NEEDS and MUST be expressed , otherwise I am doomed to a life of discontent , hurt , and good for nothing existence , I dont show love , what and who am I good for ? Life has no meaning . In addition , in my case (the reason I gave up on the idea / and "afraid of") it has to be expressed to its fullest extent , unconditionally .
So , why am I "afraid"? Was never given the opportunity to express it in its fullest extent (ie:without reception) , so what happens ? Discouragement , disappointment , the feeling of utter stupidity , worthlessness .... the list goes on ad infinitum . Now repeat that two or three times , and each time with a renewed hope and add being taken for granted and misused , bingo !
How do we hide God ? The same way I do or rather, did (till I came to the realization that I'm actually hiding God) .
God NEEDS and MUST be expressed , (be let known of our insides to the outside) .
God is LOVE , I hide love , I hide God , end of subject . If I do , I do it for one purely selfish reason , "what if I get hurt again" .
No matter how hurt I had gotten in the past , the choices I have left is 1) I will stay being hurt because of the past , or, 2) I will continue to hurt for lack of ability to express it (hide) so either way I'm screwed !
So I'd better drop the my-self and start giving no matter what , or suffer the consequences . Besides , who do I think I am to deny anyone the gift of love and the joy experienced from it when it was freely given me ? (I should know better than saying "freely", undeservedly would be more appropriate in my case) , and if, by the way , I get the same "results", let love continue anyway , but that is highly unlikely that it will be the case , How do I know that ? Someone asked me once "Ho do you know if what you're doing agrees with God's will ? " my answer ? " I pray , I seek the truth in it , I ask , and I go about it as if the answer was yes (faith in soverienghty) , and if He doesn't agree , believe me he'll stop me !! "
So far , nothing stopped me from writing this to express my feelings except the clock on the wall saying get off the computer vahn !!
luv you all !
No matter how well we think of the person and hold them in reverence , that we be willing to go out of our way , save up all we can by making sacrifices and doing without other necessities in order to give that person the best that WE think they deserve , and no matter how beautiful , expensive , unique or one of a kind that gift may be , if the person does not receive it in appreciation , all scores for the effort will read ZERO , even if the rest of the world recognize its worth and be held in amazement . Take for example our Lord , if we dont receive Him with grace and love , God's sacrifice of His only begotten just because He so loved us , and the life that Jesus willingly laid on the line for us just to show us a better way , all the scores for the effort will read ZERO, (in vain) .
My original idea for a title was a question I asked a dear friend last night was , " what if someone was put in a position where they have to hide God ? " that question came about as my response to the question tossed at me as to why am I so afraid to show love ?
The above paragraph should sum it up .
Love NEEDS and MUST be expressed , otherwise I am doomed to a life of discontent , hurt , and good for nothing existence , I dont show love , what and who am I good for ? Life has no meaning . In addition , in my case (the reason I gave up on the idea / and "afraid of") it has to be expressed to its fullest extent , unconditionally .
So , why am I "afraid"? Was never given the opportunity to express it in its fullest extent (ie:without reception) , so what happens ? Discouragement , disappointment , the feeling of utter stupidity , worthlessness .... the list goes on ad infinitum . Now repeat that two or three times , and each time with a renewed hope and add being taken for granted and misused , bingo !
How do we hide God ? The same way I do or rather, did (till I came to the realization that I'm actually hiding God) .
God NEEDS and MUST be expressed , (be let known of our insides to the outside) .
God is LOVE , I hide love , I hide God , end of subject . If I do , I do it for one purely selfish reason , "what if I get hurt again" .
No matter how hurt I had gotten in the past , the choices I have left is 1) I will stay being hurt because of the past , or, 2) I will continue to hurt for lack of ability to express it (hide) so either way I'm screwed !
So I'd better drop the my-self and start giving no matter what , or suffer the consequences . Besides , who do I think I am to deny anyone the gift of love and the joy experienced from it when it was freely given me ? (I should know better than saying "freely", undeservedly would be more appropriate in my case) , and if, by the way , I get the same "results", let love continue anyway , but that is highly unlikely that it will be the case , How do I know that ? Someone asked me once "Ho do you know if what you're doing agrees with God's will ? " my answer ? " I pray , I seek the truth in it , I ask , and I go about it as if the answer was yes (faith in soverienghty) , and if He doesn't agree , believe me he'll stop me !! "
So far , nothing stopped me from writing this to express my feelings except the clock on the wall saying get off the computer vahn !!
luv you all !