What a difference a day or two makes (made)
Posted: Sat May 30, 2009 11:13 amThough I am in a much different frame of mind (spirit) than I was say, this past week , Tue & Wed to be specific, but , the events that took place during the Memorial weekend obviously are still on my mind , for here I am still writing about them . But , like I said, in a different perspective . (Something I learnt from my AA sponsor , " If you wanna say something , DO something first and then tell us what happened , and what the results were" (what does he know huh?)
Rewind , Memorial weekend , Fri , All passes issued , the center half empty , library closed , no net , no Morning Devotion to prepare , no OASIS ,
Ok , "go to an AA meeting and see what happens" .
I shared this with a fellow COOLie (thank God for them) on Wed , I think it was , but anyway , ended up going to (AA terminology) a "meeting after the mtg." (coffee) , nothing unusual there, except for the the fact that the crowd happened to be secular (no God whatsoever), still nothing unusual , but , without realizing (it came to me later) , I usually read myself to sleep , but that night I completely brushed off Scripture oriented material and went straight to "all-information-you-will-never-use" instead .
Next morning . No in house Devotion , just the regular personal prayer found me go something like "mememe-Thank-You-C-U" and out the door I went, straight to the Club (AA) , again , nothing unusual there , only this time I found myself seeking the company I was with the day before , no one there , maybe they'll be here for the Nooner , no dice , ok evening , ahh . Suddenly , a voice saying "What're you doing ?!!! " . Well , needless to say , that voice became louder and louder , and each time I found myself annoyed more and more .
Well , more of Sat led to Sun (no church , no devotion ...) by mid day Mon I'd gone to full scale "wreck" (guilt , dissapointment , you name it ) , so thick was the cloud on Tue. that I couldn't concentrate on job at hand keeping my eye on the clock to get to OASIS , by noon I called the brass for replacement for the rest of the day , straight to the chapel "OK Pops , what's going on" . Meditation , answer ? I didn't even put up a fight by at least to walk away from the whole scene , or to change the subject or any of that !! just went along with whatever came my way . Now please dont get me wrong , all "clean" stuff , but secular (worldly) nevertheless .
Convo with COOLie , share , listen , answer , " If the bond with the Lord and His children had not been strong , why would anyone feel like they're betraying and consequently be filled with guilt ? " and followed by questions such as " Where are you with your faith ?, are you becoming more dependent on OASIS than the Lord ?" and on and on .
You know what ? The past two days my thoughts were directed toward " Where and what would I be doing if it WASN'T for this place for me to come to " Now that even scared me more , so here I am .
I believe it was Tue or Wed nite , returning from the library (sharing session) my eyes fell on a book with a marker I had left in it screaming at me to read , written by Chuck Swindoll , "Can one person make a difference" , in the chapter titled " Having freedom without abusing one's rights" talks about Paul saying in I Corin. 9 "for though I am free from all men (seculars ?) , I have made myself a slave to all , so that I may win more" (aha , there's my feeling of guilt !!) I "failed" to do so .
Snatch the Bible off my shelf and read on , answer (solution) , Verses 20-22 : "To the Jews I became a Jew , so thatI might win Jews " (v.20)
When around the pagans (seculars) he wrote ..... to those who are without Law , I came as without law , though not being without the law of God but under the law of Christ, so that I might win those who are without law. (v.21)
When around the weak he wrote "To the weak I became weak, that I might win the weak; I have become all things to all men, so that I may by all means save some . (v. 22)
So , there , my all Gracious Lord put me in that situation on Memorial weekend to tell me , through the both absence then presence of OASIS and fellow COOLies and through His Spirit using you people that I finally "heard" His calling .
It's ok , to "mingle" with none-beleivers , as long as you carry out God's plan and not yours !!
OK , now I gotta double-line my helmet and put it on , for I sense some "jabs" coming my way ! But I luv you all anyway !!
Rewind , Memorial weekend , Fri , All passes issued , the center half empty , library closed , no net , no Morning Devotion to prepare , no OASIS ,
Ok , "go to an AA meeting and see what happens" .
I shared this with a fellow COOLie (thank God for them) on Wed , I think it was , but anyway , ended up going to (AA terminology) a "meeting after the mtg." (coffee) , nothing unusual there, except for the the fact that the crowd happened to be secular (no God whatsoever), still nothing unusual , but , without realizing (it came to me later) , I usually read myself to sleep , but that night I completely brushed off Scripture oriented material and went straight to "all-information-you-will-never-use" instead .
Next morning . No in house Devotion , just the regular personal prayer found me go something like "mememe-Thank-You-C-U" and out the door I went, straight to the Club (AA) , again , nothing unusual there , only this time I found myself seeking the company I was with the day before , no one there , maybe they'll be here for the Nooner , no dice , ok evening , ahh . Suddenly , a voice saying "What're you doing ?!!! " . Well , needless to say , that voice became louder and louder , and each time I found myself annoyed more and more .
Well , more of Sat led to Sun (no church , no devotion ...) by mid day Mon I'd gone to full scale "wreck" (guilt , dissapointment , you name it ) , so thick was the cloud on Tue. that I couldn't concentrate on job at hand keeping my eye on the clock to get to OASIS , by noon I called the brass for replacement for the rest of the day , straight to the chapel "OK Pops , what's going on" . Meditation , answer ? I didn't even put up a fight by at least to walk away from the whole scene , or to change the subject or any of that !! just went along with whatever came my way . Now please dont get me wrong , all "clean" stuff , but secular (worldly) nevertheless .
Convo with COOLie , share , listen , answer , " If the bond with the Lord and His children had not been strong , why would anyone feel like they're betraying and consequently be filled with guilt ? " and followed by questions such as " Where are you with your faith ?, are you becoming more dependent on OASIS than the Lord ?" and on and on .
You know what ? The past two days my thoughts were directed toward " Where and what would I be doing if it WASN'T for this place for me to come to " Now that even scared me more , so here I am .
I believe it was Tue or Wed nite , returning from the library (sharing session) my eyes fell on a book with a marker I had left in it screaming at me to read , written by Chuck Swindoll , "Can one person make a difference" , in the chapter titled " Having freedom without abusing one's rights" talks about Paul saying in I Corin. 9 "for though I am free from all men (seculars ?) , I have made myself a slave to all , so that I may win more" (aha , there's my feeling of guilt !!) I "failed" to do so .
Snatch the Bible off my shelf and read on , answer (solution) , Verses 20-22 : "To the Jews I became a Jew , so thatI might win Jews " (v.20)
When around the pagans (seculars) he wrote ..... to those who are without Law , I came as without law , though not being without the law of God but under the law of Christ, so that I might win those who are without law. (v.21)
When around the weak he wrote "To the weak I became weak, that I might win the weak; I have become all things to all men, so that I may by all means save some . (v. 22)
So , there , my all Gracious Lord put me in that situation on Memorial weekend to tell me , through the both absence then presence of OASIS and fellow COOLies and through His Spirit using you people that I finally "heard" His calling .
It's ok , to "mingle" with none-beleivers , as long as you carry out God's plan and not yours !!
OK , now I gotta double-line my helmet and put it on , for I sense some "jabs" coming my way ! But I luv you all anyway !!
