Hello Goldie
God bless you this day.
Goldie, I've been reading along with your posts -- both here in this Forum and in the Coping with Mental Illness Forum. I love your heart. Yep, I really do, because you so honest.
I don't and won't ever claim to know all the ins and outs of mental health or the reason we think the way we do, or whether or not something is a chemical imbalance or whatever. I can only go by my own assessments and the discerning the Lord gives me. I'm still growing; therefore, I'm not there yet.
I say all that to say this...Goldie, God has given you a very sensitive spirit. It is a gift; however, just like any other gift that He gives man, we have to get to know Him and grow into the gift. I say, get to know Him, because far too often when man goes about getting to know his/her gift, they become puffed up and big headed. It's just a by-product of this flesh thing.
But as we get to know Him better, He leads us into understanding of the gifts He has bestowed upon us. Because, hey -- the gifts are for His purpose, right? Woooohoooo!
So often when I've read your posts, I find that I could say "I resemble that comment." Yet, we have such different lives. I've been married since I was 19, and so for 36 years I've not lived alone. In fact, I've never lived alone -- I went straight from my parents house to making a home with my husband. There were years within my life that my husband was a police investigator and he would work very strange hours that required that he not be at home nights. I never got used to sleeping in a house by myself, and for most of our 36 years of marriage I used to wake my husband several times a week, insisting someone was in the house. He patiently would get up and search through the house to calm my fears. I heard things, and my mind would imagine lots of things. However, I found out years later that not everything was my imagination. See, I too, like you, have been given a very sensitive spirit, by God. I am no longer afraid. I still hear and see things, but I have gotten to know my Lord now, and the scripture "Greater is He that is in me, than he that is in the world" is quick to my heart and lips. Thank You Lord.
Sensitive spirits hear and often see things that others do not. By the guidance of The Holy Spirit we can be used in ways that we never deemed possible. It is; however, absolutely critical that we stay as close to The Lord as possible and that we learn His voice above all others and that we shod and arm ourselves with His Sword -- the word of God. Remember, it is His gift. Yeah!!!
The spiritual world is huge. The earth realm pales in comparison to the spiritual realm -- it doesn't come close to the size of the spiritual realm.
Goldie, you have a great call on your life. God can, does and will continue to use you for His purpose.
God did not give you a spirit of fear, but of love, of power and of a sound mind.
Until we meet again. Love you lots, dear Goldie
God bless and keep you.
Love,
Mack