My journal..
Posted: Mon Jul 07, 2008 9:50 pm
I feel a little better and what not. To me whining and being depressed because things arent going my way arent going to get me anywhere. Or change anything. The old me was so awesome. I prayed everyday and was so confident in myself. Prayed for those who hated me and we became friends and everything. I hope the real me comes back soon. I also am kinda scared that when Jesus comes back if he chooses to take me with him or leave me here. All I want to do is go to heaven. Also I want to serve him here on earth like he wants me to. I just dont know what tasks he want me to complete. How can I know what he wants me to do and what not? Like how do I find out? I'm glad that I took part in this program and really hope it helps. School is starting soon I hope all goes well in that department too. On the news it keeps saying about college students getting killed. That makes me scared to go to college. Also is it wrong to be afraid to die sometimes? I really want to go to heaven. But I also want god to know that I love him with all my heart and everything. Thanx for all who reads this. I'm also on step 3. Yay! =)