Wait upon the Lord
Posted: Thu Oct 18, 2007 10:37 am
Well, here I am again, I often wonder what my purpose is in my walk with God, I know I am to do His will, of late I find myself asking God.." show me my purpose Lord, the desire of my heart is what You desire for me! " I so want to help people who are in the bondage of drugs, as I have wrote before, it seems i am doing nothing at the rehab lately, no one wants to discuss God and all He can do for them, I go to the rehab. to help and everyone leaves to jobs to make money for the rehab. appointments with probation officers and to the doctor, I ask God..why am I here, I drive 30 minutes just to watch everyone leave? I ask for different days to volunteer, but am told there are no open days! Is this God telling me to move on or satan trying to get in my way? I call to talk to one young lady who is excited to see me come, she will be gone in two weeks, I call and I am always given an excuse as to why she can't talk..I know there are rules but I was told as the staff was told also..if I called to counsel a resident..I was to be put through, but since then a new director has taken over. I am so ....can't think of the right word, frustrated! I am getting to where my prayer time is almost nill..I am reading " The Spirit within, the beast without " AGAIN! to maybe get some inspiration. ....Lord help me..I want to be in Your will, I want to lead souls to You! Start with me Lord, clean me up from the inside out!!!........... I walk around this big , old, rundown house during the day..just pacing, wanting to hear a word from my Father!!! ...any prophets out there wanting to help...HEY! PLEASE DO!!!!!! for the record...I will never, ever go back to the life I lead before Jesus pick me up out of the muck....Jesus is my life line..my hope! well, guess I have moaned and complained enough ( God forgive me )
In Christ,
Christdaughter I wait upon the Lord
In Christ,
Christdaughter I wait upon the Lord