Journal Day Four
Posted: Sat Mar 14, 2015 11:05 am
It is very true..forgiving yourself is the hardest part of forgiving in general.. I placed alot of blame on myself for things. My fathers suicide for one.. I don't blame myself that he did it, but that I didnt try to stop him. I never told anyone in my family about the conversation my Dad and I had. That he told me he was going to kill himself. Not in those exact words but he more or less did tell me. I just didn't think he would actually do it. (and of course yes I was angey he did it)
I blamed myself for not trying, calling someone, the police anything.. but now I see it isn't my fault..and I'm not to blame!
I've always had the tendency to be harder on myself than others, maybe we all do to some extent. But, now I feel God is helping me. Jesus is healing me so I can move forward. I really want to be productive and do for God in my life. Getting past all this will be so great and free me to be who God wantes me to be..
I blamed myself for not trying, calling someone, the police anything.. but now I see it isn't my fault..and I'm not to blame!
I've always had the tendency to be harder on myself than others, maybe we all do to some extent. But, now I feel God is helping me. Jesus is healing me so I can move forward. I really want to be productive and do for God in my life. Getting past all this will be so great and free me to be who God wantes me to be..