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I often wonder who I am & yes I know I am a child of God!! & that is the best thing to be, however after years of lying to my family and to others about my marraige, about everything.. Its just hard to find me.
They would ask me, hey David how are you and your wife? and I'd say things are great, wow huge lie. I was broke all the time even thought i might have been working the money was spent on something we did not need & that I deffinetly did not want in my home. Yet i had no control over the situation, plus i was told by my wife, my step son and the kkk thaqt nobody would believe me anyways. One day I decided to test that theory and told a family member some of what had been going on. I was told to stop making up stories to try to get attention.

It took years for me to get away from them and then even to this day i feel guilty that i left them with everything and yet with no money.

I would lie about things when i was a kid as well.

Now that i am away from all that i tend to not lie, it feels better to be allowed to say it true. To be allowed to eat what i want when ioi want, to be able to spend money and not fear of getting beaten for spending it on myself.

If you don't like what i have posted please just dont say anything, it is very embarrasing to me that i was beat up by family and their friends for so long and was not able to defend myself.
be blessed.

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