Day 1
Posted: Mon May 19, 2014 10:26 am
Starting Day 1 (again). I feel like a mess. Have so many physical issues and chronic pain, and spiritual and mental as well. Just can't seem to maintain a relationship with God, or people--due to deep inferiority/insecurity and introversion; but feel powerless to change. Can't seem to believe that God loves me, and can't seem to find the discipline to pray or read the Bible consistently. Whenever I make any progress, the enemy knocks me flat, and discouragement sets in. Feel very hopeless and alone, and want sooooo much to go "HOME." But I thank God that I have a very loving and supportive husband and that I have a volunteer position at a local hospital that allows me the opportunity to get out of "self" and to help others. Don't have much motivation when I'm at home, so I enjoy my volunteer work very much.