1st Journal Entry
Posted: Fri Jul 12, 2013 4:16 pm
I am beginning to obey the Lord more and more, letting go of vices, and obeying a whole lot more when it comes to the small stuff. Only by God's mercy and grace.
But I believe the enemy has been trying to condemn me for certain things, random things, at random times, about normal things.
What's really confusing is that this condemnation happens and I immediately assume what I'm doing is wrong even its totally morally neutral, but sometimes I feel it's God convicting me. I feel it's God convicting me because I'll feel unconfortable, not at ease, like I'm doing something that displeases God and then I'll start praying and realize I forgot to thank Him for something, or He reminds me of a scripture verse or hymn that I needed right there and then. Sometimes I feel like It is God getting my attention, other times I think it's just the enemy trying to trick me. The enemy tricks me a lot by putting things into my head, things I think are coming from God but really were not God at all. I'm really trying to do God's will, so the enemy tries to get in the way of that and tries to get me to do things, not always sinful things, but things that get me off track like dropping out of a class or spending too much money.
My trouble is I don't really know the difference between the enemies voice and God's voice. Or God's conviction or the enemies condemnation. They feel the same. when I sense them, They feel just the same, so I don't know how to trust.
But I believe the enemy has been trying to condemn me for certain things, random things, at random times, about normal things.
What's really confusing is that this condemnation happens and I immediately assume what I'm doing is wrong even its totally morally neutral, but sometimes I feel it's God convicting me. I feel it's God convicting me because I'll feel unconfortable, not at ease, like I'm doing something that displeases God and then I'll start praying and realize I forgot to thank Him for something, or He reminds me of a scripture verse or hymn that I needed right there and then. Sometimes I feel like It is God getting my attention, other times I think it's just the enemy trying to trick me. The enemy tricks me a lot by putting things into my head, things I think are coming from God but really were not God at all. I'm really trying to do God's will, so the enemy tries to get in the way of that and tries to get me to do things, not always sinful things, but things that get me off track like dropping out of a class or spending too much money.
My trouble is I don't really know the difference between the enemies voice and God's voice. Or God's conviction or the enemies condemnation. They feel the same. when I sense them, They feel just the same, so I don't know how to trust.