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[James.chevallier]

Forgiving her is so hard. I'm so resentful for what she has done. She is not giving up and still lying to me. We even met last night and she pretended to have her split personality to manipulate me as always. I didn't want to see her. I know that I'm not strong enough and I'm way happier without her. The joy of being obedience is way better than a lustful way of life. But last night really made me realized how heartless and manipulative lair she is. I think I can forgive her better when I don't see any type of future between us. I think she lied to me about the break up with her boyfriend. I'm asking God to forgive me for my sins, cause I was with her last night and I know exactly how it feel to be betrayed. I hope that God will help me with this walk and make me stronger as I'm walking day by day. I believe that He has something far better than this for me. I hope that whatever happened last night isn't going to set me back too far. I was so happy before I met her. I've done everything I can last night and I'm proud of myself...I loved her until the end. I kept my promise...NOW I really want God to love me more and more.