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I'm so glad you enjoyed the step. I pray you do continue and press through the difficult things if the only option is to give up.

love ya

I'm praying for you....

I am 11 years free of alcohol & drugs & 10 yrs free from "cutting". It took me a while to realize that the cutting was one of the ways that I masked the pain I felt inside from abuse and emotional pain. See, I don't know if this would make sense to you, but I thought it was about a "release" feeling. But what I found out later is that for me, it was a numbing aide. I'd cut the body to not feel the pain of the spirit & the mind. When I could make the outside (body) hurt worse or more than my emotional pain, I could handle it better. I seemed to be better at handling physical pain.

Finally in my recovery, I found out that I had become my own abuser. From that moment on, I did my best not to cut again and to try to not inflict pain on myself anymore. I guess I still do cause myself emotional pain by accident sometimes in my wrong choices, but it's not intentional these days. Hope that makes sense?

I am praying for you and sending you love & ((((hugs)))).
Your new sister in Christ~

Yeah, that makes sense. I'm praying for you too. God bless. ((((hugs))))

Thank you!! I appreciate that!