First I want to welcome you to the Oasis family, yes we are family here so I can tell you this much you ARE a child of God
and always will be even when you are angry with God.
I know some will not agree with what I am about to say but it is my true belief
What does God want from us.....Our love and truth right??
can you be true if you hide your true feelings (which by the way He sees) so in short all you are doing when hiding your being angry or upset with Him is showing Him no trust or truth....make sense??
NOW before I get those who will see things different, I also believe it is not right we have these feelings BUT we ARE human and hiding them and saying they are not real does NOT make it so
I feel He wants us to be an open book to Him weather it is about our feelings, desires or needs....He already knows it so just admit it, and ask for His guidence through it and for His will to be done.....and then comes the harder part....
ACCEPT IT!!! even when it is not what we want it is what He chooses that matters.
As for salvation, I love how the church I go to puts it
It's as easy as A-B-C
ADMIT - you are a sinner
BELIEVE - He is your God
CONFESS - your sins
Sis we ALL stumble and fall it is what you choose to do after that counts
Look into the studies here you will find them to be a blessing
Cuc