Day Three on the Path of CCCC
Posted: Sat Aug 11, 2012 7:25 amAhhh, another morning and a good one. It honestly feels good to be home. I get so used to being away doing my own thing and Boom! I find myself at home with my mom and grandma in need of being away for a little while and I already feel relieved. Praise God. I'll soon be diving into the word to spend some time with the Lord. This is such an interesting season in my life and walk of faith. I know I haven't walked away from God, but things are really different. I feel like I am in a lay-over and I am awaiting another plane. I know I'm going somewhere that I'll enjoy, this lay-over thing is just a part of the journey there. Hmmmm. With that said, things are definitely going to be alright, this is just part of getting to where I want to go. Waiting on God, literally. Sometimes I've said I'm waiting on God and actually He's been waiting on me, but this time I really am waiting on God for a lot of things. I was reading the scripture yesterday in Romans where it says that suffering produces character and that character produces hope and I was likening it to my situation. I am definitely suffering and even though suffering sounds bad to the world and no one should suffer according to the world's standard, yet I along with every other true believer must endure the suffering as part of our journey in reaching the mark that we're pressing towards. Through the suffering we're refined and it builds our character, our identity; who we really are on the inside and then our hope is making it through to the other side!This actually happens all throughout the believer's life; for me it has been in cycles. Summers lately have been rough I've noticed, especially the last too. There's always some type of transition going on either inwardly, outwardly or both simultaneously. This summer it has been overwhelming, but I am starting to see the light. In the transition there are gains and losses, high points and low points. High points because we are being transformed, low points because because it ain't easy and it hurts. I feel lonely a lot and I don't like saying that, because if you knew me you would think "Oh, she never faces loneliness. Everybody loves Lex!" But nope, loneliness has many faces and if you look deep into mine you'll see a lonely, fearful yet joyful soul. I have had to be honest with this fear thing. All over the Bible we're told to not be afraid! And that if we're afraid something is off and when I say off, I refer to the scripture that says, "God hasn't given us the spirit of fear, but of power..." So when I am afraid and the feeling is very real...I'm stopping mid-sentence because God is ministering to me on this right now. Lol! That's weird!! Anyways, today will be great because I'm with God and I'm with family and He will be with us. Feeling alot better than I did during the week. Now next week? Well, Imma leave that one alone for now. Really.
You received Him. Yeah!!! You yielded to Him, and what a blessing you received!!! God is so very Good!!!