Day Two on my Path in CCCC
Posted: Fri Aug 10, 2012 9:00 amI'm glad that it's Friday and I am glad to be alive yet another day. I realize that being more mindful that each day is not guaranteed to me causes me to slow down and remember that it's all about the will of God. I used to be so quick to say "next week I'll.." or "tomorrow I'll...' and I am slowly remembering to be slow to plan and hastily make agreements and to remember that only if the Lord wills will such and such happen. One of my roommates is leaving today and I was able to write her a little farewell letter. It's good when people move on and go on, but I will definitely be feeling her absence soon which will prove to show that I really did enjoy having her around for the little time that I did. Exactly two weeks from today, my service term with AmeriCorps ends! God knows I am looking forward to that. AmeriCorps has challenged me soooo much. Yes and challenge is good... but I didn't like this program at all. I realize that my pure motivating for taking the opportunity was to receive the education award that will help me pay down my student loans. Because having a loan is grieving, suffering here and walking through the tenets of this program have been a displeasure. Of course there were moment where I was enjoying what I was doing, but overall it has been rough. Simply stated. Today is going to be a better day than yesterday because I know God is not done with me. I have another opportunity to pray for grace and allow myself to fall in His love so that I can walk into the freedom that is mine in Christ. Planning to spend time with family tomorrow...my grandmother is visiting as she always does around her birthday and she is celebrating with a birthday dinner. I am looking forward to it. Right now I am taking things moment by moment.