Hello Zemirah , good to see you here .
This is the way I see things nowadays . This , Spiritual Journey of ours is a Destiny (assigned to us by Him) and not a destination that we assign ourselves TO ourselves , (hence the saying , "we all fall short") . I have fallen "away" from Him , .. many times , and sometimes I still do from time to time . The key for me is (as given to me by Him) is , WILLINGNESS . That is all that is required of us . I needed to teach myself to become willing , regardless whether I think I might or might not "make it" .... that "make it" part had to diminish ... it is NOT about make in it , this (the Spiritual life) , is NOT a theory of a sort , where , if we do this or that we get some points or something , the Spiritual Life is just that , a Life . All we have to do is live it , the best we know how . He asked us to SEEK , He didn't say find
. We just seek and He is the One who does the revealing , and right now , it is my opinion that He is doing a fine job on you
. and all this implies that He Truly loves and cares about you . Do not go by the standards of other people (ehem ... you ARE people
)
Keep up the good work sis , you're doing great
Luv ya
In Christ , our Lord