Day 1 Journal
Posted: Tue Jun 12, 2012 3:21 pm
Wow, what do I say? I think this is a great program for me and others. I love the fact that we can help each other.
I have started a new church last year and I was loving it. It is non denominational and I was doing a bible study and just enjoyed it so much. I was learning about faith and going in the right direction. Then I became ill with hyperacusis and tinnitus. Hyperacusis is extreme sensitivity to sound in which the sound of water is bothersome and even the rustling of a plastic bag. Driving, shopping showering, I mean everything hurt. It hurts to hear. My whole life was put on hold as well as being frustrated and scared. Tinnitus is ringing in the ears or noised that u hear can change moment by moment. I saw I was slowly losing my faith as time has gone on. It's been 7 months now. I dabbled in the bible here and there but recently just completely stopped. I want to believe that I can be heeled and get through this, but my negative thoughts and words have taken over. I am beginning to see I cannot do this without God. But I need support and help to get there. I no longer go to church because it's way to loud. I basically am housebound and just go to dr appointments.
I am hoping to get to know some people that can be supportive in this journey through Christian Oasis.
I have started a new church last year and I was loving it. It is non denominational and I was doing a bible study and just enjoyed it so much. I was learning about faith and going in the right direction. Then I became ill with hyperacusis and tinnitus. Hyperacusis is extreme sensitivity to sound in which the sound of water is bothersome and even the rustling of a plastic bag. Driving, shopping showering, I mean everything hurt. It hurts to hear. My whole life was put on hold as well as being frustrated and scared. Tinnitus is ringing in the ears or noised that u hear can change moment by moment. I saw I was slowly losing my faith as time has gone on. It's been 7 months now. I dabbled in the bible here and there but recently just completely stopped. I want to believe that I can be heeled and get through this, but my negative thoughts and words have taken over. I am beginning to see I cannot do this without God. But I need support and help to get there. I no longer go to church because it's way to loud. I basically am housebound and just go to dr appointments.
I am hoping to get to know some people that can be supportive in this journey through Christian Oasis.