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[David]

Oh, I've really been blessed by this program. I got the Miracle Grow chart done, still doing alot of 'weeding' and am making a list of all the things that I need to forgive myself and others for. I have quite a list, I am praying over each one. I am also making a list of good that I've done, ammunition when the enemy comes. Trials and tribulations. I've had some past experience on this subject. The last couple of days have been full of little trials but also some great victories. Hasn't been easy! I haven't had much of a good relationship with my nephew, who is now 12, over the last year( I have the nick- name "Uncle- dad" - his dad isn't around, you can imagine). Tuesday he had an awards ceremony I couldn't attend because I was managing sound for 2 events at the church and wanted to go to a bible study, time didn't permit (45 minute drive one way). Family wasn't happy. I had planned to call the next day to congratulate him, I did that went well. The next day as I was leaving the house, he was being dropped off by my sister. We talked for a minute and he put his arm up to hug me, first time in a while I felt comfortable giving him a hug. It was nice. The last 2 days were full of little nightmares and I was really busy. Yesterday I got to the church and decided to fix the leather on the center console of my truck, which came unglued. So I was trying to stretch the leather by heating it with lamp. Was doing this, gluing, clamping it a little at a time and would go do other work. It got too hot and tore the leather. Doesn't sound so bad but I was trying to do 5 things at once, had a slight migraine (yup I'm one of the blessed 5% of the male population) and the day was just not going well, I was so far behind on the list of to- do's. I was so fed up with the day going so bad I got into my truck for a drive(wanted to keep going). In came the voices, 'you can't get anything right! That's why you got fired from your job, you can't fix a simple thing on an automobile...' I began to pray, and I had a peace- I thought "that's not true, I fixed many vehicles over the 20 years and did an excellent job". God brought to remembrance many of the things I have done that were good. Had a bad day today again,Had only about 3 hours sleep, kept having those nightmares. Setting up a fish tank (salt water) in the foyer- Pastor got himself a new tank in the foyer, helping my friend do some plumbing on it, I cracked a housing on a pump we were waiting 2 weeks for. Great! I was having other issues when one of the ladies from the office came walking in, and gave me a smile, handed me a Thank You card. I opened it, read it and enclosed was a gift card for Jamba Juice. A $50 card! It was for doing sound, lights, video and recording for the ladies bible study. More of a story to that, another time... Also when I was alone and in the thick of the funk I was in, Beautiful by Mercy Me came on Pandora,
Days will come when you don't have the strength
And all you hear is you're not worth anything
Wondering if you ever could be loved
And if they truly saw your heart
They'd see too much
Thank you my friends, this is good.

[realtmg]

David, God truly loves us.
keep pulling the weeds.
and this will help
GBU brother

Real

[Dora]

Good to see you back at it brother. I've found sometimes when doing the study I'd miss a few days but then the day I sat down to do the next stepping stone it would be perfect for that day. The few days where I missed was because God needed to work on me and get me where I would listen to the words in the study. Perhaps He was working on you to align your spirit with the words it would receive in the study today. God bless you!!!

[JohnR]

Hi David, good to see ur back! Late is better than not at all! Today is day 14 for me & I just finished step 11. I'm not worried about it as a matter of fact I'm glad. Because I usually rush thru things but now I'm taking my time & soaking it all in. I have to say I really feel for you because I know what's it's like to have a day where it seem that nothing goes right & you just beat ur self up over it. In the past I'd get all angry & po'd & reach for comfort in a substance (u know what I mean) but now I put on some Christian music & it helps bring me back to reality. I'm reminded that nothing I go thru can compare to the pain that Christ suffered so I could be forgiven & have a restored relationship with the Father. Sorry to hear about ur migrane's & I'll pray for healing 4u.
God Bless
JohnR

[vahn]

Hello David

Posts like this one is what I love to read most . Looking at the good alongside the "bad" . That is a quite ballancing act , and you're doing a fine job . Reading this type of posts also get me to remember where I was , and the "directions" I received when I brought in the open . One of which , upon reading your post , reminded me of what my sponsor tossed at me when I was having one of those "Nothing-to-seemed-to-be-going-right" days .

His (sponse's) trick was and I am at same time time suggesting you do as well (just to humor me ok ?) ; "Try to remember ONE thing that got you all 'razzled' yesterday !!! " . If you are anything like me , you're probably have to spend a moment or 2 , scratching your head , trying to remember one right ? (Or at least , trying to make one up ) .... See , here was his point , and it goes along the lines of "Be Still .... KNOW that I , Am God" . almost 80% of what goes on today in my head , I will probably not even remember tomorrow , even if I tried to ... So , why wait till tomorrow ? .... I can start my day over at any time ... I can make this very moment my "tomorrow" , all I have to do is , Be Still and Let Him do His Work .

If , by any chance , I am STILL "remembering" what got my goat yesterday , then it has NOTHING to do with either memory , or disappointment , or even anger any longer .... Now we call it , Resentments .



Keep up the good work brother
Luv ya
In Christ , our Lord
vahn

[Debbie]

Great share, thank you David. I love the Christian music on Pandora--just discovered it this week--so awesome! Bless you.