Sharing about my life
Posted: Fri Jun 01, 2012 11:21 pmWhen I got married both my wife & I partied. We were both pretty carefree until she became pregnant with our 1st child. Well she stopped (Thank God!) & settled down but I didn’t. I’d stay out all night “doing my thing”. I never cheated on her with other women, not to say that I didn’t come close a few times, but I defiled our wedding bed anyway by doing other disgusting things (Too personal & don’t want to go into details but I’m sure you know what I mean). Then our life began to fall apart in 2000 when I lost my job of 18 years. I found another job soon after with a substantial loss of pay then in 2003 I lost that job, 2 days later we had our house foreclosed on, had to cash in my 401k, & leave everything we had ever known in New Jersey to move to Texas (We moved in with my Sister-in-law). Well a few months later with the help of my father we found our own place but because of a lack of steady work, little pay, & taking in too many animals this place is literally falling apart. I really haven’t been a very good provider, father, or husband. It’s no wonder she doesn’t want to have a physical relationship with me anymore! So as you can see I have my work cut out for me. I know I’m on the right track because it really bothers me that some of behavior I’ve engaged in is not only tolerated now a days but almost promoted & glorified. It makes me sick! I want God to make me well so I can expose (Maybe write a book) Satan’s lies with God’s truth!!! PLEASE PRAY FOR ME. 
). After doing so you now have this new freedom (from past mistakes and regrets etc...) in choosing to do otherwise when a similar situation occurs. We do our part and become accountable and responsible for our actions only. We practice this in all our affairs in our life.