Day 5
Posted: Thu May 31, 2012 10:55 pm
Finished stepping stone 5 today & wow that gave me a lot to think about! The one thing that stuck out in my mind had to do with anger. This is one area that has plagued me since as long as I can remember. It seems as though it’s part of my DNA coming from an ancestry of the angriest people on the planet…the Germans. Let’s face it they started two world wars you don’t angrier than that. I’m saying this kind of tongue in cheek but there’s probably a grain of truth to it. I’m also not trying to blame (they talked about that too) my ancestry & I take full responsibility for the things I have done in my life but I just don’t fully understand where all this uncontrollable anger came from. I had people that would start in with me when I was growing up just because they knew they could get me to explode. Why couldn’t I control myself like other “normal” people? It’s something I’m still coming to terms with & maybe it’s something I’ll never fully understand this side of heaven. Of course I’m not like that anymore but I still have my moments & a lot of times it’s over something very stupid. One thing I do know though is that despite all that God still loves me & for whatever reason he made me like this I know he has a plan!