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I missed day 2 journal because Sundays are very long and busy for me and yesterday I was able to spend some time with my family, Mom, Sis and nephew for a Memorial Day lunch. Ok, the last few holidays I have literally run away from my family due to depression. I thank you all for the prayers and support. I had a belief that I couldn't believe in myself or in having relationships, especially with God. Yesterday was a true blessing! I got to show off some of my recent audio recordings and studio work as well as play some pc games with my nephew. I sent a text to a friend I haven't spoken with in 2 months and got to sit on the coast and watch the sun set. Unfortunately today has been rough, didn't sleep well, accomplished nothing except to run about 40 feet of cable, but I'm fighting still. So many times I've fallen and it gets to be a struggle to get back up. When I do, it seems I don't get very far up until I get knocked down again or when I do decide to change my direction in life, I'm too late or I've made a terrible mess of things. I guess I have a heck of a time forgiving myself- I forget that Gods grace is enough for the entire world if they choose to accept- it should be enough for me.

God be with you David, hang in and hang on to God. I'm on day 3 today; I appreciate that there are so many Bible lessons on this site, and sources of encouragement. I pray God will strengthen and empower both of us to complete this 14-day program and to continue to move forward in Him--away from self, away from depression and isolation. God bless!

Thank you Debbie, I am thankful that I can share what I'm going through with others who are dealing with the same issues. One blessing of this program is that we are no longer isolated, we do have people here that care. BTW I'm in Ventura, where in CA are you? We aalready have the power to finish this 14 day program. We don't fight for victory, we fight from victory. So we can compare notes in 10 days. God Bless!