Day 2
Posted: Mon May 28, 2012 3:15 pm
I just finished Stepping Stone 2 & completely read Renewing Your Mind....Whoa!!! Now I know why I stay so sick because getting better takes work! And I'm not too big on doing work. If I was to make a list of my sins, sloth would probably be at the top of the list. If you look at my profile I list TV/movies as my interests because they take little to no effort. Before getting to this site I was out of work & very depressed. I found the Celebrate Recovery program thru the internet, had just over a month in the program, was feeling much better, & was able to find a job thru them. The only problem is the job involved working nights so I was no longer able to attend meetings. Well it didn’t take long before I stopped reading the bible, praying, & then fall back into bad habits. This isn’t the 1st time this has happened either. Back in the late 90’s I got involved with & active with a good Christian bible based church. Well that didn’t last too long before events conspired to cause me to fall away. I 1st accepted Christ in my early 20’s but because I lived as a carnal Christian that also didn’t last before not only did I fall away but found myself worse than before I had gotten sober. Satan seems to be really good at knowing my weaknesses & exploiting them. I’m like the seed that falls amongst the weeds! I keep thinking about what the Lord said about those who lack commitment & what will happen to them. I don’t want to die having lived a life that was totally meaningless. To simplify the renewing program I’m going to combine mind, body, & spirit chart & also work thru my Celebrate Recovery program books. I’m really tired of being sick & tired!!!
Please pray that the Lord will give me strength to carry on & stick to my commitment.
Please pray that the Lord will give me strength to carry on & stick to my commitment.