My Journal Entry #2
Posted: Tue Jan 31, 2012 4:43 pm
What an insight! My garden has been weeded many, many times throughout the last several years, however, I believe I have done light weeding, and the "root" of my problem has only grown bigger and stronger. I need to slowly work at this weed -- to attack the root.
Even though I have been divorced for many years, the guilt and shame of my wanting the divorce has been haunting me. I've cried out to God for forgiveness, and I know he's forgiven me. It has been difficult to feel forgiven because I am dealing with the consequences of my sinful choice -- the rebellion/hurt of my kids when they were teenagers. But, God has turned my daughter's pain into a blessing. She is a strong Christian young woman now -- with a faith that can move mountains. God can use all circumstances for His good, and he did.
I've allowed Satan to continually punish me for a sin that God has already forgiven. I know I'm a completely different person, and have fully repented. But Satan knows my weaknesses, and he continues to pursue me.
Thank you Jesus for forgiving me. I have Faith you can heal me. I will pray and ask for your healing hand, and appreciate others prayers.
~Lynn
Even though I have been divorced for many years, the guilt and shame of my wanting the divorce has been haunting me. I've cried out to God for forgiveness, and I know he's forgiven me. It has been difficult to feel forgiven because I am dealing with the consequences of my sinful choice -- the rebellion/hurt of my kids when they were teenagers. But, God has turned my daughter's pain into a blessing. She is a strong Christian young woman now -- with a faith that can move mountains. God can use all circumstances for His good, and he did.
I've allowed Satan to continually punish me for a sin that God has already forgiven. I know I'm a completely different person, and have fully repented. But Satan knows my weaknesses, and he continues to pursue me.
Thank you Jesus for forgiving me. I have Faith you can heal me. I will pray and ask for your healing hand, and appreciate others prayers.
~Lynn