Step 6
Posted: Mon Nov 07, 2011 1:04 am
Ok. Time to come clean. I slipped up today. Did what I said I wasn't going to do (listen to the gossip) and even participated in it.
But, you know what? This time around, I'm learning something from this trial. Even though I participated in it, it didn't affect me like in times before. Like it just wasn't "important" today for me to hear the lastest gossip. As a matter of fact, once it was all said and done, so was I. The main reason why I wanted to participate before was because the talks were about me and my job and someone(s) who's out to get me (make me look bad and then try get me fired). And I was just terrified almost everyday of hearing something about me or my job. So I would join in just to see if it was anything being said about me. But today was different. I don't care anymore. I'm going to let them say whatever they want to say about me, I'm just not going to let them talk to me anymore about me or the job. I hadn't realized that this was a trick of the enemy, but now I know. And I'm done with it. I'm growing in Christ, y'all.......(tears rolling down my cheeks).......I'm growing............
But, you know what? This time around, I'm learning something from this trial. Even though I participated in it, it didn't affect me like in times before. Like it just wasn't "important" today for me to hear the lastest gossip. As a matter of fact, once it was all said and done, so was I. The main reason why I wanted to participate before was because the talks were about me and my job and someone(s) who's out to get me (make me look bad and then try get me fired). And I was just terrified almost everyday of hearing something about me or my job. So I would join in just to see if it was anything being said about me. But today was different. I don't care anymore. I'm going to let them say whatever they want to say about me, I'm just not going to let them talk to me anymore about me or the job. I hadn't realized that this was a trick of the enemy, but now I know. And I'm done with it. I'm growing in Christ, y'all.......(tears rolling down my cheeks).......I'm growing............