Sis,
the devil only has the power over your thoughts that you allow him to have. You are a child of God. You may be angry with Him. He knows. He still loves you and wants to show you that you are angry at the wrong one. I was there too, not long ago. I thought God should have worked things out the way I believed He should. When things didnt happen the way I expected, I got angry...but, He loved me anyway. He walked with me through that storm.
Of course the enemy isnt gonna be still and quiet while you are seeking the Lord and His healing. But, the victory over the enemy and all of his vices is already there. Its already been given to you. Its a matter of getting out all the yucky stuff the enemy plants and replacing them with whats true. Claiming His victory over every situation according to His will. This is a daily thing. From one glory to another. You can do all things through Christ who stengthens you. It is His strength that carries us through, sis. Not our own. We are not strong in ourselves.
Im praying for you...one day at a time. Talk to Him...tell Him everything. He already knows it there...but, He wants relationship with us..with all the things we try to hold back from Him...He wants us to talk to Him honestly..even about our anger towards Him.
God bless you, sister.
In Jesus,
love momo